it's halloween!

hope everyone is doing well

I'm doing the thing again, where I'm excited to go get my blood work done, get my E dose raised, and get a new medication. In reality, either nothing will fundamentally change (TM) with E, or it will get lowered again. Still hoping I might be able to get prog, although I believe that means I have to drop last time's new med (Spiro).

I'm making a chart for the reasons I would/wouldn't want to start HRT. Listed below are just my personal preference. Could you suggest things for the list that I missed or correct my misconceptions?

Had a dream I kept up with voice training and had a nice fem voice I liked -_-

hehe... hammers

tired

How did I get stuck working another fall back over night AGAIN.

🎵No shadow
No stars
No moon
No cars
November

It only believes
In a pile of dead leaves
And a moon
That's the color of bone 👻💀

Impressed the cashier with my sheer brain muscles by confidently adding up to 20 walked out the store with 16 lbs of spaghetti with such confidence and swagger. This is how hunter gathers felt after a successful hunt I feel

Up.late gaming with tha boys 😎

Oh yeah, also beginning to cook my mega post a month in advance. There's no way I'm going to finish FE: TMGC in a month with how busy I am, so it's going to be something a bit different 🧐

Looking through my journal, as I do whenever the date is somewhat significant. Went back to June/July era, and I was so cute and hopeful . I was excited to get on HRT because it would make me look pretty (my words, not mine), and I screamed (wrote in all caps) that my breasts were going to grow (again, my words, not mine). These two phrases essentially lined a whole page of my composition notebook of a journal, I was so hyped! Well, look at me now, making progress

I'm still hopeful for the future, very much so, but I've lived like this for a few months now. It feels like an amazing new normal. There's just something about it being new, though. The extreme levels of enthusiasm, excitement, and hope I recorded, while at the same time wondering what's on the other side, not knowing what's to come. It's better now, but it's amazing to look back on how I was a few months ago.

TL;DR, start keeping a journal if you don't already. It can serve many purposes, and it allows for looking back at the good things, and venting about the bad things. I never thought I would be able to journal, and that I wasn't much of a journalist, but I started, made it a thing I did every day, and I've only missed two days in my approx. 175 days of journaling.

watched ~too~ ~many~ make some noise shorts on youtube and my cheeks hurt from all the silent laughing i had to do