“Fuck gaming who has time for that shit.”

Spends at least three hours straight on TikTok and not even being interested or entertained.

thoroughly enjoying being around my gf and still have another week to go

in a slump recently. zero spoons. send spoons. feels like the seasonal depression is just a binary switch that got flicked when the weather started to turn lol. i am chronically depressed but it will kick my ass worse during the winter. gonna try do some journalling or something mindful. love all my trans comrades

I still miss sharing a bed with someone else 😭

Not even for sex or for cuddles, just the light snoring and warmth is what I miss the most

Some days I wish I was cis

Uh oh it has only been 3 days since I was last high and I am craving weed again. I may have a problem here

Going places with family is always so confusing, fam always like that cashier/waitress was checking you out or flirting with you were you not interested? is all I can say but even that isn't fair since some of my most spreadsheet/train loving friends got game. I've no clue how to flirt and when confided to friends of my crushes I'm just too subtle.

My boss came back from a somatic experiencing thing and I feel like it gave her some kind of soul vision. she reads me so easy...

"It seems like there's something in you that you just need to shed..."

I wonder if she can tell and is just trying to prod me along. It feels weird to have such positive feelings for her because of the power dynamic and yet here I am

I just scheduled my first hair appointment under my girl name and she/her pronouns.

I've always hated getting my haircut, so I'm more than a little anxious about going. The salon is queer friendly, but it still took like an hour to work up the courage to schedule it. They even ask for pronouns in the booking interface.

There's a solid layer of dirt on my face, except for where the KN95 mask was.

It's been so dry, and it makes leafblowing so dusty 😖

down with cis

Thinking about how Dr K said people are more attracted to each other if they experience emotions together and analyzing my whole life through the lens of empathy. How I rarely am affected the same way by common situations and don’t have common feelings rub off on me. How I don’t know how to show other people how I’m feeling in a recognizable way if I am under the impression there is a common feeling. Basically explaining why being terminally online is easy and socializing in real life is not.

had the energy to get some chores done in the garden today ^_^

I have a cute outfit I'm gonna wear tomorrow and I'm excited for that

Is there a difference between gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia?

Is gender dysphoria like a subset of dysmorphia?

If a cis woman worries that she looks too masculine or a cis man frets about balding, do these count as gender dysphoria or dysmorphia?

What is the appropriate amount of worrying about one's appearance before it gets pathologized? Lol

I just had someone I normally respect tell me "I've only seen white people take your position" when I said that I wouldn't cast my vote for genocidal Democrats, were I an American. While they were also claiming that voting for Harris is critical to protecting the American trans community.

I can't even fathom a response to this.

sigh

if i want a GF i have to download shudders the apps, don't I?

yeah :(

Someone keeps throwing stuff at my apartment. This is the 3rd floor up, this is like the 3rd rock they've hucked up this way over the past couple months. i have no idea who I've offended or how but quit throwing rocks at my place

My anxiety turned into rage, so today I’ll be alternating between and .

Curly's making the allstar team for cat hockey, his GAA% is fantastic

Is gender euphoria the right term for me when I'm happy that I feel agender? Idk but I feel very happy when I look at the agender flag and think "that me lol"

I hate bra shopping. I have been wearing the same bra for nearly 5 years. It is now too small because I switched to CPA (also it's old lol) and I am sore as hell and where I used to be ok wearing it all day now I need to get the silly thing off at 2pm. How do I even start shopping online? Last time I measured it was kind of all over the place since I didn't really have a round shape. I remember it being a fucking ordeal last time in a department store trying to find something that fit me. Since I just switched to CPA a month ago, is it better to wait until the pain settles before upgrading since I'm not sure how much development I have left in me?

Basically, how y'all measuring?

I hate how little I can cry