thoroughly enjoying being around my gf and still have another week to go

in a slump recently. zero spoons. send spoons. feels like the seasonal depression is just a binary switch that got flicked when the weather started to turn lol. i am chronically depressed but it will kick my ass worse during the winter. gonna try do some journalling or something mindful. love all my trans comrades

My anxiety turned into rage, so today I’ll be alternating between and .

No spoons today and they haven’t been coming back.

I just had someone I normally respect tell me "I've only seen white people take your position" when I said that I wouldn't cast my vote for genocidal Democrats, were I an American. While they were also claiming that voting for Harris is critical to protecting the American trans community.

I can't even fathom a response to this.

down with cis

had the energy to get some chores done in the garden today ^_^

“Fuck gaming who has time for that shit.”

Spends at least three hours straight on TikTok and not even being interested or entertained.

Is gender euphoria the right term for me when I'm happy that I feel agender? Idk but I feel very happy when I look at the agender flag and think "that me lol"

I just scheduled my first hair appointment under my girl name and she/her pronouns.

I've always hated getting my haircut, so I'm more than a little anxious about going. The salon is queer friendly, but it still took like an hour to work up the courage to schedule it. They even ask for pronouns in the booking interface.

There's a solid layer of dirt on my face, except for where the KN95 mask was.

It's been so dry, and it makes leafblowing so dusty 😖

Curly's making the allstar team for cat hockey, his GAA% is fantastic

Uh oh it has only been 3 days since I was last high and I am craving weed again. I may have a problem here

Going places with family is always so confusing, fam always like that cashier/waitress was checking you out or flirting with you were you not interested? is all I can say but even that isn't fair since some of my most spreadsheet/train loving friends got game. I've no clue how to flirt and when confided to friends of my crushes I'm just too subtle.

I still miss sharing a bed with someone else 😭

Not even for sex or for cuddles, just the light snoring and warmth is what I miss the most

i made everyone in tracha watch the rizzler on jimmy fallon with me... feeling loved and appreciated right now

🎀 Dresspost #7 is up 🎀

Very glad that I finally found the time to do this, had a lot of fun with this one. I think at this point I'm gonna give up even trying to have these be vaguely regular occurrences since it seems like I just can't do them when I have schoolwork the same week, but when I have a nice open slot of time I love to throw them together.

Some days I wish I was cis

I hate bra shopping. I have been wearing the same bra for nearly 5 years. It is now too small because I switched to CPA (also it's old lol) and I am sore as hell and where I used to be ok wearing it all day now I need to get the silly thing off at 2pm. How do I even start shopping online? Last time I measured it was kind of all over the place since I didn't really have a round shape. I remember it being a fucking ordeal last time in a department store trying to find something that fit me. Since I just switched to CPA a month ago, is it better to wait until the pain settles before upgrading since I'm not sure how much development I have left in me?

Basically, how y'all measuring?

Someone keeps throwing stuff at my apartment. This is the 3rd floor up, this is like the 3rd rock they've hucked up this way over the past couple months. i have no idea who I've offended or how but quit throwing rocks at my place

Thinking about how Dr K said people are more attracted to each other if they experience emotions together and analyzing my whole life through the lens of empathy. How I rarely am affected the same way by common situations and don’t have common feelings rub off on me. How I don’t know how to show other people how I’m feeling in a recognizable way if I am under the impression there is a common feeling. Basically explaining why being terminally online is easy and socializing in real life is not.

caught up on the 2 latest miniminuteman videos. he put out a cool one on the social history of vampires in Europe. and oh my GOD I want to kiss that man so badly. why do I only ever form this sort of parasocial attraction to masc presenting youtubers? this is like the third time, it's always a dude

i just started playing Fallout London and I hit "female" body type in the character creator and it gave me a male body? wtf this game just clocked me and I got the TERF island treatment

I can't fall asleep for anything tonight, so I'm just laying here trying not to worry about transition stuff. Dysphoria is hitting really hard too. Two hours waiting so far. Also fun to remember how bad I feel when I don't sleep enough.