I was thinking about adding some tongue twisters in to my voice training routine, since they'll have different sets of sounds than what I normally use in conversation. Here's one for each day of the next week.
Monday
To sit in solemn silence in a dull, dark dock,
In a pestilential prison, with a lifelong lock,
Awaiting the sensation of a short, sharp shock,
From a cheap and chippy chopper on a big black block
Tuesday
Six sick hicks nick six slick bricks with picks and sticks
Wednesday
Fred fed Ted bread and Ted fed Fred bread
Thursday
A blanched black bug bleeds black blood but what color blood does a bland blue bug bleed?
Friday
The great Greek grape growers grow great Greek grapes
Saturday
If you must cross a coarse cross cow across a crowded cow crossing, cross the cross coarse cow across the crowded cow crossing carefully
Sunday
Luke's duck likes lakes. Luke Luck licks lakes. Luke's duck licks lakes. Duck takes licks in lakes Luke Luck likes
If you want something normal sounding to say instead, try the Harvard Sentences. Or read a book to someone!
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I'll be the first to admit this advice is less than tremendous. I'm not sure there's anything that helpful I can say, really. But at least you don't have to change anything right away.
If you dress right, you can make this much less obvious to the casual observer.
How it works is that it sucks, unfortunately. Trans people are disproportionately impoverished, which I'm sure isn't news.
I'm not saying you need to have any answers right now - just begin figuring out what all the questions are. You don't need to have the money to move, but figure out how much you might need. You don't need to get a degree tomorrow, but start thinking about what degree you might want to persue in the future. You see where I'm going with this.
It's so easy for us to feel alone. I'm sorry you don't have someone to help you through this in person.