It's deflating. I remember growing up and the first time I read Marx as a teen, I went: "This makes so much sense." Said it to the serious adults who all called me utopian and idealist.

The 90s depression is when my own family lost everything. I watched neoliberalism roll in and could not for the life of me understand why people just took the austerity and misery onto their personal selves, how Jaska from the corner bar thought he needs to now suffer because common good and national debt. No riots, no protests, nothing.

Then there is the rise of nationalism and rewriting of history. The great project of national homegenousness that rolled over workers, minorities. The forgotten divide which I at least still remember very well because I crew up in a family of half Reds and half Whites. The othering and shittalk the White section did was so disgusting. I remember it, why nobody else does?

And turns out none of the history I was given in school, from family, is true. I mean true in the framing sense. From the civil war to winter war to finladization it's all just bs from start to finish.

It's a shit country with mostly Reddit type lib people in it now in positions of power. Debatelords and oh so civilized rational trolley problem people who just want to belong to the west. Yet they don't. Our bourge are currently selling us for parts to Google, mining companies and military operators, just as it has always gone. And nobody bats an eye because they believe everything they are told. Or it seems like that at least.