"I decided we would do an oral exam* because it's a great way to see if people have actually learned anything from my course and aren't just parroting notes. Because I can ask them to elaborate on their answers."
Yeah and it's also a great way to get otherwise good students to go blank because it isn't possible to absorb every bit of complex information you spent 12 weeks rushing through, Barbara.
This "gotcha" style teaching fucking pisses me off. There is no time in the real world people are not going to be able to look up their notes. Fuck, half the time I'll ask a professor something and they'll be like "I'll have to look that up later and get back to you." Why? BECAUSE THEY'RE HUMAN AND THATS HOW BRAINS ARE.
This type of teaching only favours students that already had experience with the subject beforehand and freaks with amazing memories. This kind of understanding of the material only comes from experience and repetition, something that the traditional 12 weeks of rushed lectures/labs that discard each topic quickly to fit all of them in don't do.
I fucking hate how much I am going into debt to be taught only the vaguest concepts but doing most of the teaching myself in my own time. Education under capitalism is a joke.
*An oral exam is an exam where instead of answering questions in a quiet room on paper, you have to answer questions on a live video call with your instructor.
That's worked for me to far too. I'm scared about 3rd year though. What if I'm too dumb to make it?
Real. I’m scared I’m already reaching that limit.
Can you be strategic about it? Can you go through the course documentation and work out what you need for a bare pass? Then work upwards with whatever time and energy you have left? There isn't a magic formula, like, but this might take the pressure off just enough to (1) spend your time where you really need it and then (2) spend whatever time is left on what you enjoy most (and are therefore more likely to do better on).
I doubt very much you won't make it. You've got this.