LainTrain

I had a comically bad day yesterday, like dropping things, almost lost my keys down the drain on the sidewalk, spilled soup at the store near a makeup section, almost tore my pants, got back from the store only to find out I was out of TP, etc.

It was more funny than anything else, like so much random trivial bad luck in one day is like something out of some 90s Tom Hanks comedy.

But there was one thing that actually annoyed me - on my way back from the store on my grocery trip, my phone suddenly went from a healthy 7% to 0% and died. I was stuck with no music for the remainder of the walk back.

Soooo I was forced to listen to the sound of well - nothing at all basically.

Just birds chirping, wind blowing, leaves rustling, all as I walked the same path I walk all the time and see the same things I've seen hundreds of times, just waiting to get home.

Don't get me wrong I love where I live and everything, it's a really cool city with good pedestrian infrastructure, I almost never even get close to a car and it's not some smelly euro village either, but seeing the same things I've already seen and having no stimuli at all, it wasn't that big a deal but it was unpleasant.

That got me thinking - I sometimes see folks not wearing earphones outside, and I've heard on more than one occasion from some acquaintances that they don't listen to music outside, and I wonder - why's that?

Why would you choose to do that?

And, what do y'all like, do, exactly? How do you deal with the monotony of your grocery trips or things like that when you don't even have music on? Do you just never get bored of walking the same roads/neighborhoods w/e day after day?

If you're shocked, you're lucky, I am not.

This kind of thing is what you come to expect from an institution where only the most vicious TERFism passes for "neutral" and incoherent rambling about muh blockers passes for "science", using taxpayer money to shut off all care for under-16 trans folks in the UK.

After almost a year of moving cities for the first time in 3 years and some of the highest highs of life, I crashed, reached burnout, some bouts of sads and self-doubt, exacerbated by the weariness with the world and the consequences for mine and my loved ones' future prospects and generally increased cynicism towards everything.

Needless to say - hard times. But last week I've finally been sufficiently functional to partake in the one hobby that stuck with me despite ADHD, the one thing that has never not brought me joy and catharsis and it is making music. Feels great to be back.

Hey so I just upgraded from 1.139 to 1.144.1 because the mobile app would lock up the phone and wasn't able to load any images anymore for some reason.

Thought I was on the latest version but ig not?

The upgrade went ok, I kept my customized compose and .env file disregarding all instructions and used docker-compose pull to update (why do I have to do that, by the way? Why isn't docker stop and docker rm and docker system prune followed by docker compose up -d enough?) and I'm having an odd issue on the Immich mobile app from F-Droid - version 1.143 running on Pixel 3XL, Android 12.

If I enable 'Prefer remote images' I cannot zoom into the image at all. Not with 'load original images' enabled and not with 'load preview images' enabled and not with either or both disabled.

Even with 'prefer remote images' disabled, I still cannot zoom properly. I can double tap to zoom into the image at a fixed zoom level and double tap to zoom out, and I can pinch to zoom to a variable level, but the normal double tap and drag down/up gesture that's used in e.g. Google maps or Google photos or fossify gallery apps doesn't work. Anyone else have this issue?

Figured I'd ask here just in case someone has had a similar issue and it turned out to be user error before opening an issue on their GitHub.

I've been looking for a job and jesus it's really gotten to me. Half the listed jobs are either the big tech companies like meta/aws etc. or defense contractors like lhm, northop-grummann or even dodgier glowie orgs. I'm pretty sure when such a large chunk of the economy is fucking defense contractors that it shows in the job market for something utterly unrelated (IT), that's fascism. Then I see they're selling off the UK military to palantir. Great.

It wasn't like this before. There were your goofy startups and your B2B SaaS companies, the latter I work for and it's been going under for years because it simply was never a good idea.

But that's just the straw that broke the camel's back because it was so real in a way reading news stories on the internet just isn't, it wasn't just a fact, it was an element of my life now, no different from the weather outside.

The absolute onslaught of anti-intellectualism, it's like a virus tearing through the population, a psychological blight, much worse than any coronavirus could be. The hypernormalization of it all and the sheer whiplash of the overton window has even got me shifting rightwards, through sheer osmosis and pressure.

Every time I hear my coworkers mention "grok" I get like a reaction, like "oh, that's the internet thing" and the compartmentalization of brain rot falters, I'm forced to acknowledge it is in fact - real, that what is going on is in fact real, and not just something I can laugh at. Being queer and an immigrant it's frankly shocking I've even been able to maintain this defense mechanism this long. My very future is on the chopping block, always has been, but maybe the city walls just can't stand the seige anymore.

But while I can take care of myself, I worry about the world, about others, distant and close alike. I don't need everyone to believe what I believe or align with what I think, but I feel insane at times because it seems like even the simplest rational thoughts are few and far between, everyone seems unhinged or some sort of insane grifter. It makes me want to grab the world and shake it like "why can't you just be normal".

And then there's people who plunge headfirst into the hypernormalization, realigning with the status quo, maintaining a pretense of continuity, when it is clear there's absolutely no real belief beneath. The pretense just intensifies to compensate.

Nonetheless I don't think there's much I can do, I don't know where to even start, I'd happily fight against the world that's coming but I can't do it alone, and it sure feels like I'm pretty much alone.

The burden of our time sucks, is all. Anybody got some good strategies to disconnect for a bit, so I can recuperate my psych defenses? Smell the roses and all?

EDIT: thanks everyone who responded. Think I'll check out of Lemmy for a bit, I'll make sure to read your insights and experiences when I get back. Thanks, and be well.

Just in case someone has been in a coma since like 2016 and has somehow not heard of the original, it's "A Quick One Before The Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut" by Have A Nice Life.

This song seems to be a Banjo(?) cover of it.

As a disclaimer, I'm not actually anti-AI, but tons of slop is made with it. It's the same as those TTS Reddit reading videos from back in the day or any other shitty trend from the last 10 years.

I'm old enough to know to dismiss internet noise as vastly out of touch with the actual silent majority of internet users, so this moral panic over slop to me was just zoomers who grew up on reaction videos thinking that wasn't slop to the folks who came before, but I was on a train, looking around, I saw like 4/5 people I could see were on their phones, watching clearly AI-generated content, on TikTok or something similar based on the UI elements, one of them even had it on speaker for some reason.

All of them seemed around my age in the mid-20s.

Thing is, I don't really understand it, what's the appeal? I'm not asking about being on your phone, but specifically short-form videos about nothing specific.

When I looked it up, lots of talk about addiction and dopamine loops, but I can't relate to that, I assume this maybe has something to do with me having ADHD and the theory that my dopamine system doesn't really work "normally".

I tried watching TikTok before, but it definitely wasn't stimulating for me, I got bored pretty quick. If I was on a train and really bored looking out the window listening to music, I'd whip out a Wikipedia page or read the comments on Lemmy or look up a random question on my mind.

Why? Well in my experience - text is a lot easier to consume you can consume more information faster, hence to me - it's more stimulating. Works both ways too - It's just easier to express yourself quickly and clearly in text than by speaking. Even typing on my phone feels a helluva lot less taxing and more stimulating than speaking/listening.

It's not like I don't watch videos, I do have videos on in the background sometimes when I'm tidying up or whatever, where I prefer long-form stuff so it just fades into the background and stays consistent and non-distracting. If I watch a movie it's often something I kinda need to mentally work myself up for. I definitely wouldn't be able to pay attention to a video playing on my phone.

So my question is - what's so stimulating about this type of stuff in particular?

I want to hear about your experience so I can understand it better.

I'd like to understand it, because otherwise it feels like most people are weird aliens, driven by forces beyond my comprehension, and it's not nice :(

Whats a good resource? Any guides or such you found particularly helpful? I'm only familiar with some basic x86 assembly, no SSE, AVX, etc. would it be "too much" to try and learn any Risc-V assembly?

Also, are there Risc-V devboards, and if so which ones are good, and what do you use yours for? Are they at an 8-bit microcontroller level, or ARM-running-Linux type beat? Asking the latter because it's always fun to have a real target when learning a new architecture.

Hope discussion is allowed, this place seems like mostly link spam.

What's something that gets you every time? Like a genre trope? A well-timed amen break? Hi-gain on drums in post-punk/new wave? Wow and flutter in a lofi sample in a Current Joys or Teen Suicide type lofi song?

For me it would be acoustic guitar accompanied by a piano melody below, like: https://youtu.be/9FCF2Y4lIWk And https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZuIMcmNZnU

Never can quite tell if it's actually playing the same/accompanying chords in the bass clef or if it's just EQ frequency cuts to give the guitar space to breathe, and never could figure out how to make it myself, trying to put guitar and piano together just ends up with mush whenever I try it, but nonetheless as a listener it always really underscores any drama so well, I love it, no matter how tired or how often I hear it, it never doesn't work.

Close second would be really stripped down instrumental electronic or synthwave songs that are just arpeggios in a few chords with no percussion, really gives me that feeling of refreshment and a new dawn at the end of some story, or perhaps a deserved break.

For example:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYLP1pB7xBs https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9obW0GNyYbU

I noticed a lot of people seem to browse by All yet complain there's not much content, whereas I'm browsing by Subscribed and I still feel like there's an unreal amount of content, far more than I could consume even if I was browsing Lemmy Non-Stop all day.

I wonder if maybe sharing our subscribed communities with each other would help?

Well the "threatens" part has at least

Every time I come back to a thread later - it's gone. What gives? This is the only community on Lemmy or heck even on the internet in general where I've seen this, it's so odd.