Funny, I always envy that women have so many choices for how they dress, and the fact they can dress like a man if they want and hardly anyone bats an eye. Men’s Clothing is pants and a shirt. Want fancy? Pants, shirt and a jacket. Want to go wild? Add a vest, and make it all black and white. Booooriing. Women have so many more options. JMO. That said, go for it. A dapper style of dress still looks cool.

just dress that way. Also, the egg culture in here is rampant

You can transition if you want. They can't stop you.

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The great part of that is that you can, with relatively little friction, dress that way. Well, depends on where you are in the world regarding friction. But in general, alt fashion is within bounds for someone AFAB, without any need to identify as anything but a woman, if that is how you identify.

Hell, depending on where you live, the various scenes can even be directly behind that style of idealized anachronistic dress. You'll see it even at some comic conventios, and definitely at sci-fi/fantasy gatherings, even in cities that it would otherwise draw attention as unusual. But in art districts and such, you'd fit right in more often than not.

Even if you don't live in that kind of place, it's amazing how little time it takes for people to just shrug atypical clothing and fashion off. Yeah, you'll run into issues with some specific styles, but on average, if you dress in that general genteel style, a few weeks go by, and folks just absorb it as your particular thing and ignore it.

Beyond that, if you are discovering your self and that self is a man, don't let the current environment dissuade you from picking up the parts of masculine presentation you're comfortable with. AFAB doesn't mean you have to be female any more. You can let the man inside you out.

Be your best self, and if your best self presents more masculine, so be it. You can be cis, heterosexual, fully identify as female, and rock a masculine persona. Personally, I have a very weak spot for women like that, and I am far from alone. Don't let anything deter you from getting comfortable in your own skin.

You can become your ideal self with hormone relpacement therapy.

There are many active comms where you can get more specific information regarding how to go about recieving HRT, even if (and perhaps especially if) the prevailing authority in your area thinks it can control how you express yourself.

I'm not exactly trans myself, but I exceedingly enjoy seeing before and after pictures of people just looking very "meh" about life to being 18 billion kelvin rays of sunshine, rainbows, happiness and comfort. It's awesome and as a human bean, you deserve that.

Somewhat-scrawny male contortionist build is real.

Aside of the height thing (maybe?), most of that you can do now as-is, without expensive medical therapy.

And I say that based on what you posted. Obviously there may be more to it, and if there is that’s fine.

As with anything, start small and with the things you can do now; i.e. clothing and hairstyles. Work your way up.

From my own personal experience, starting small helps to build confidence when tackling the more complicated stuff. Plus you get the satisfaction of checking things off your list (if you’re into that sort of thing).

Anyway, you deserve everything you want, and I wish you the best of luck in your journey!

Real quick question: how do you see yourself when you’re 80 years old?

OP, I wonder if you'd like to start experimenting first with some more androgynous dress styles. You can find out what direction to go to best express yourself.

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