Melbourne

Thanks to everyone listening yesterday.

Spoke to p's last night. A bit of the email advice got through but being realistic I think it helped only very little.

As long there are some supplement going in that's best I can hope for. Tone wasn't great w/ ol' boy (usually the opposite on when on trips), and was very easy to pick more mental decline w/ ol' girl. Doesn't take long with little food that's for sure. Gonna have to wait and see the damage with that.

Anyway brighter news.

Made it down the bellarine last night. Before leaving though the tradies next door had their radio up quite loud w/ house. I'd left the speakers from the partay outside (which are louder) so started blaring heavy drumandbass. They switched their playlist to DnB too lol so it was like a multi residence un-beatmatched rave for a few hours.

Interesting conversation overheard on the tram this morning. Between a group of 4-5 mid-high school boys. All friends I think, but there were 3 different school uniforms present. About consent. All relevant factors emerged in the conversation like self control, impulse control, drunkenness licence, teasing, narcissism, sociopathy, inherent evil, influence of religion, good manners, peer pressure etc. - the whole nine yards. Manosphere not specifically mentioned but that topic hovered in the background. I could understand if they were processing a session done by a school - but 3 schools at the same time? And discussed in the morning not on the way home after the session. I was actually impressed by the level of maturity the boys were using to discuss the issue. Not all agreement, of course, but a very good level of general understanding by all. There is hope for the future.

I think I'm going to crack a cider

Such a great night. Here's some pics.

spoiler

If you're ever in Point Cook give this bar a go. It's called Lovesick Bar. 5/5 yum yums.

Fucking hell, had a car run into the bike this morning. Unc was stopped right in front of the pedestrian crossing, car in front of him takes off and he stays there, so it looks like he's waiting for me to cross. I had a feeling that wasn't the case but how can you tell?

I go to cross and that's when he takes off, running into the wheel of the bike. I was fine and the bike's alright, front wheel might be a bit out of whack so I'm dropping it off at the bike store for a service on the way home.

I go up to his window and yell and swear at him a bit, he was probably on his phone and not looking. I had just pumped the tyres up and the bike was rolling so well, didn't even get a whole ride out of it.

So tired today. I can literally feel my body entering hibernation mode with our darker, drearier mornings. Will to get out of bed this morning was non-existent.

And I have a psych appointment later today and have to talk about my feelings, zero motivation for this. Wish I could cancel but they charge a penalty, so I must go.

Had the ecocardiogram and the guy that did it said he didn't see any issues.

Wearing this holter thing now to measure my heart rate for 24 hours.

Also I have a feeling work is going to let me go because of this. Maybe I shouldn't have told them the truth.

Urgh.

Just overheard a shopkeeper deny a customer a return because her store had a certain limit for the day and they weren't able to do returns over that limit. When the customer had left, I queried it because what if the item was faulty and she said "faulty is different" (obviously because they legally have to), but still... that doesn't sit right at all.

Someone my husband works with has opened a new bar/restaurant thing. YL was meant to take us tonight but she has uni so my husband will have to drive. Which means I will need to sample the cocktails on my own. It's a big responsibility. I think I can do it.

Update: WE NOW HAVE A DRIVER 🍹

Finished the PHM audiobook. I’m gonna need to bring tissues when watching the film.

Tea break!

I have procured a vanilla slice and some sushi. Special lunch (for a work day) achieved

Happy Project Hail Mary Day!! 🥳🥳🥳

I am beat, really hopeful that this week is my final week of late shifts ever. 1230 to 830pm, then Monday back to 8am to 4pm. I swapped yesterdays shift and tomorrows shift for much earlier ones, which in hindsight wasn't the best idea. Not getting enough sleep this week. Hopefully by this time next week I'll have a shiny new job offer which has stable hours of my choosing. 🙏 I might end up taking tomorrow off, I don't think I can manage finishing at 830 tonight and starting at 8am tomorrow for my swapped shift

Wrecked calf and ankle. Just sore and needed strapping.

I love walking around with a pronounced limp like a 70s pimp.

1 hour 20 minutes so far for my call to Centrelink.

Sigh. I don't blame the phone monkeys, they're working at concentrix lol. I'm just emotionally and mentally compromised and this call is just gonna make me cry when I'm done lol.