askchapo

Hey are you me?!

Taking a single pill can be oddly hard in my experience. Aww it's amazing you're nourishing a kid's health and happiness. I'm not sure what youre being resilient in the face of, but I'm glad you're doing it.

I totally understand crisises driving us to make changes. Blood sugar issues seem so difficult to manage, I'm always awestruck when people maintain it just enough to not be in crisis. I barely know anything about diabetes, but I understand the socially anxious, sedentary, indoor lifestyle because I live it for the most part. I just exercised outside for the first time in months and it was a huge change. Discomfort from workout soreness is pretty sweet. It's comforting discomfort and I don't want to live without it. I don't do this many times a year. While in crisis or not, I hope I do it more.

I got ADHD too and I really admire people achieving things like work and school.

I know some people's longcovid feels better or worse with weather and temperature changes. Perhaps there's some comfort others with the same longcovid symptoms have figured out that makes it easier to function during this weather. My body has gone through lots too. Our bodies really do divine work of keeping us around to do things.

Sounds like you're studying what you're passionate about. It's one thing to remain sticking around physically functioning after certain life experiemces and getting long covid, and on top of that, you try make changes you don't necessarily have to. That's a lot.

Congratulations for surviving homelessness and ending up in a family unit you feel pride in. It should be baseline teachings to teach your family to be kind and supportive of homeless people, but for many families it's not taught. I bet you're advocating against classism in your partner's and kid's eyes. I didn't have much of that from anywhere growing up, I wish I had a bigger headstart in anticlassism. (Classist teachings can really stick around. Like how the other day, I doubted a bad review mentioning a doctor throwing a tantrum just because they were from one of the most expensive, best universities in the nation. But then I remembered a person who threw violent tantrums that got accepted into one, and I saw this as proof that emotionally 4 year old people can get into the best schools. So I understood I was being classist. Being taught more respect for homeless people earlier on probably could've helped me to not reach a classist thought.)

Your house probably smells like heaven when you bake. It will so be lovely in your family's memories. You have quite a list of things to be proud of. It sounds very healthy of you to remain believing in and doing these things regardless of people shaming you.

This rocks. Improving your headspace for the rest of the day must feel more comfortable too.

I want men to start making more meaningful art that's raw, emotional, and difficult; so difficult that it forces us to seek better perspective.

I forgot to respond to this part. Yeah I want everyone to. I feel you might like the choreography in the music video Eusexua by FKA Twigs also Butoh dancing. (I saw a way better video on Butoh, maybe I'll find it later.) Butoh dancing originated in Japan. Many dancers are painted white as if coated in nuclear fallout. I would probably know more about it, but each dance I see is so satisfyingly raw to watch I don't go into deep dives about it. To me they're refreshing and difficult at once. Please do share if you've got art you reccomend.

Yay I got chosen. I dream of being able to write poetry and share it. Idk how to rhyme atm, I've somehow lost the ability, but if you have any poetry reccomendations, maybe I'll try reading it.

Yes! The gears in others heads are often beautiful. I know someone who's advancing in sewing and it's exciting to watch. They can also rhyme really well, but they won't write poetry and I wish they would. I want to be creative, but I'm used to old patterns where I don't exercise my good qualities much. At night my dreams can help me understand that I'm brilliantly creative, if only I could manage taking things into the waking world. I'm kind of in a PTSD script that blocks me off from creating art.

What a lovely part of someone's inner person to come across in a workplace. Years ago, my now-favorite poet posted their writing and it showed me just how mindful and grounding writing poetry can be. I had no idea they had talent in writing until then.

Still don't know how to use a semi colon. I've tried looking it up, but I don't understand it.

Thats huge. You're doing very well by my standards. Partially independent sounds nice.