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You ever had a crush on someone back in the day, see them now and go "what was I thinking"?
(hexbear.net)
This happens to me when I rarely open up Facebook. I'd see someone I was obsessing over in the 10s, and now I just wonder what I was ever feeling with them. It's not like something happened and they're massively different, they're more or less the same. Really the world changed a lot and I'm not the 
I used to be.
I'm not dating anyone new now. But if I had to judge someone as hot, they would have many of the following characteristics:
- left of some soft (Marxist, Anarchist, hell I'll date a decent socdem)
- mask wearing
- vegan
- high empathy, worry about the suffering of others
- reader
- actively organising something in their community
To be honest, I had a pretty basic taste in dates back in the day. If anything, this should be a self-crit.
Dated someone for like 2 weeks, felt stuff for them. At one point they say they have something special to show me, something I'm going to like.
They pull out a wood carving of a swastika interlaced with a star of David. I'm immediately like "huh." They're all smiles asking me if I feel anything from it. They get confused when I ask if this is a weird joke or something.
Over the next hour I put together they're a deep level member of the Raëlian Church. UFOs, magical symbols, seraphins visiting and a weird amount of transphobia even though 1) I thought Raëlians were cool with that and 2) I'm very obviously non-binary. They tell me stories of how the covid vaccine gave them amnesia, how they believe they're a clone. After the second date I get a bunch of texts claiming that aliens had replaced them in the night, with some sounding panicked. I got pictures of their hair with things like "Abduction last night. Clear change in hair length on left side."
I should have noticed all the signs, but they were really into me and I was desperate for attention. Sometimes I think about what it could have been like, they were actually a vegan, seemed to have legitimate interest in me as a person too. I kept getting a "I can fix them feeling" but looking back now I realize I was just starved. They were one of only two people who ever expressed romantic interest in me.
I've been exactly here, comrade. Loneliness is hella painful. I'm glad that you're OK now. I hope that she's fine.
Yeah I'm ok, I'm more comfortable with myself these days and realizing I'm more on the grey-asexual spectrum, which has really helped with the loneliness somehow.
Fam you dodged a bullet and deserve way better. You are a queen
thank you, you're sweet. I try to be better for myself these days.
I get vibes of someone with a psychotic disorder. Sounds like they needed help, though I don't mean to imply you needed to be the one to help them. I think you made the right choice; just hope they can someday get the help it sounds like they need.
Yeah I eventually got that vibe too and had no idea what to do. There was an instance one night where I got about 150 text messages in a row, sometimes of repeated numbers or people's names. It got scary.
You rejected the Prophet of Yakub (PBUH) and now you will be punished.
They have a cat? one of my friend's cats regularly munches on her hair while she sleeps
That's rough though, I can definitely relate to just being like "but they like me that never happens" to excuse shit just not working
From the pictures I got sent there was no change. They'd also claim to suddenly have different colored eyes or a different colored aura. It was not normal stuff they were saying.
yeahhhh I kinda figured I honestly just thought the cat thing was funny
You always have the most amazing stories.
that's weird because I lead a very dull life comparatively. I think I'm just a weirdo magnet.