My disability benefits are going to be taken away. I was completely blindsided by this because I thought my exam went really well. I applied for reconsideration, but my understanding is that those rarely succeed. I can appeal that and get a court hearing, but I'd need to pay a lawyer and if I lose I'd have to pay back the benefits I get while waiting for the hearing.

Anyway, I'm trying to see it as a positive. I do want to work, so I'm just going to try and find something low stress, or at least something without a lot of interacting with people. It's going to be hard to find something because I haven't worked in 10 years and I didn't have a great work history before that either because I kept losing jobs due to my bipolar.

I wanted to try UPS because they were advertising for package handlers and it's one of the few union workplaces in my area, but they apparently stop hiring permanent positions before the holidays. So my next plan is to try to get a CDL license, because there's a lot of jobs around here that have the license as the only job requirement.

Despite all that, I'm doing pretty good. I'm more hopeful that I've been for a while. The benefits that I get are so small that I'd bring home triple at almost any job. It'll also feel good to not have to dodge questions about what I do for a living, or feel the judgements when I have to tell someone I'm on disability.