I lean leftwards because I want more people to get the help, dignity and peace they need and deserve. Now I feel a wave of being told to "harden my heart" and I feel scared and isolated. I don't have it in me to become a martyr and estrange myself from most people any further, I get nervous with the leftism I see so often expressed as wanting the bad people suffer, and that anything short of revolution is not just not good enough, but worse than doing nothing. And then I have constant guilt that I'm judging people more discriminated than me for how they express things; that my fears aren't valid and expressions of privilege.
By now I'm feeling emotional burnout, I get annoyed by any respone that isn't in-depth analysis because it just feels like watching the same responses happening over and over and never going anywhere.
if you do not know OP to make recommendations, then the only material you can go on to make an informed guess as to their relative intent to 'become a revolutionary' is the post we are all responding to, right?
where in OPs post does he say he is struggling with his feelings about necessary violence as a means to the end of becoming or not becoming a revolutionary? at what point in OPs post does he signal to you that the proper reference frame for his concerns is a confrontation with the execution of war prisoners for the prefigured crime of treason? he's sad that we have to fight them, for fucks sake. i do not have any patience for this degree of tactlessness. we are not in the cadre educating the cadets, comrade. my former line stands, i want a damn bullhorn
PICK BETTER WEAPONS, AIM THEM AT BETTER TARGETS
I'm not sure why his intent is relevant tbh. Nowhere in my comments have I criticized nor condemned nor insulted OP. I barely made it personal at all. "Are you mentally prepared about what it takes to be a revolutionary" is hardly some ego-destroying question.
This could apply to you at well lmao