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Has realizing that our time on earth is finite changed how you see life? (lemmy.ml)

submitted 1 day ago by marc4267@lemmy.ml to c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml

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Lately I’ve been thinking about death: it happens to all of us, it’s something normal, it will happen to me, I could even die tomorrow. Even if I don’t want it, I will die, like everyone else. I’m not exceptional just for being me. No matter how many gods I invent, no matter how many opportunistic preachers I pay because they promise to save me.

I’m just a monkey among 8 billion monkeys, I’m insignificant. Nothing wrong with that. It is what it is.

My life so far: take the path of least resistance. I have a job I don’t like much but I do it good enough so I don’t get fired, I enjoy cooking, fishing, poetry and drawing, hobbies that are cheap. I don’t need to keep up with the joneses.

There seems to be a perception that somebody like me is a loser, lazy, somebody who fails to live up to his potential, maybe I should try to do something exceptional with my finite time on earth, leave a legacy…

But that doesn’t appeal to me. After I die I won’t feel nothing, nor will I care about a legacy, so what’s the point?

Did realizing your time on earth is finite change how you see life?

Feel free to point out if this is me being depressed or if I need to snap out of my misanthropy, as somebody put it. I don’t consider myself depressed but after seeing and reading what humans do to other humans I don’t trust the better angels of our nature can make the world a better place.

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[–] dingus@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Man people always make antidepressants sound like magic to me when I hear about stuff like this. When I took an antidepressant, I don't think changed much about any of the way I thought or felt. Hell I was really wishing for the "emotional blunting" that I hear about to happen to me. It didn't. My emotions were as extreme as ever and I would have loved for something to "blunt" them even a little lmaoo.

[–] bleustenns@lemmy.ml 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Have you tried more than one? I found out thru trial and error that pretty much half of them either do nothing or make me violently suicidal, and apparently those are pretty common side effects.

[–] dingus@lemmy.world 1 points 23 hours ago

I have tried like 1.5 I guess lol. The one I was on for several months at a regular dose. The other one I was on for about a month at what the internet told me was a sub therapeutic dose. I thought my provider was going to titrate me up on that second one but was a bit disappointed when she immediately bailed on it for a different medication tho lol.

Granted I was having a hard time so I think she just wanted something to chill me the fuck the fuck out hahaha. I've been on a low dose of Seroquel ever since. Technically I'm a lot more stable than before which may or may not have to do with the drug. So I'm keen on keeping it for now. Still have issues now and then but meh.