I'm just really really allergic to people arguing in favor of medical gatekeeping, which is almost hardwired into the goals you're arguing for. I've had to navigate systems like that during my transition, i am back to having to do this now due to my ADHD, in fact exactly because my country's healthcare system is biased in a direction you are advocating for when it comes to adult ADHD. What you're writing just hits very close to home and i'm tired. I don't know how much longer i can go on unmedicated. I just want to do more than existing, why is that so much to ask when there is an obvious, workable solution?

Also, like i said, that kind of outburst is an actual symptom of my disability. I don't feel that way now, and that kind of swiveling back as if nothing happened is also fairly typical (and comes with its own problems), but i seriously couldn't stop that shit anymore after a certain point. It's something i'm working on, and yes, somewhere down the line i may end up taking an atypical antidepressant to rein it in because frankly, this stuff is overwhelming and i don't like the pace at which i'm making enemies. Just to reiterate, there are a fuckton of ADHD symptoms that have literally no relation to functioning under late stage capitalism and that can still ruin my life if they go unchecked. This issue is more complex than some people here assume.