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I was locked in place and became infinity and was tortured for like 10,000 years as I saw the last moments before singularity, with rippling interference as the singularity grew and reality shrunk in chunks and waves. Everything stretched thin before me as I saw the undoing of all, and then suddenly I was in my bed with my cat, sticky with dried, melted ice cream cuddled into my arm.
Also I dropped the ice cream and the cat ate it 
I mean it could also be a demon fucking with me to scare me but that's what I saw. Once you see dead parents begging their 10 year old to walk into the mouth of unspeakable creatures because the alternative is even worse, you don't sleep much.
I found it too cold and too cruel to be fake. Out of millions of sperm, only one is able to become an organism, the rest die. For those that are born, even emotional and social animals like rats are more or less food for snakes and birds. Creatures that sing to their mates and love their children get consumed en masse by creatures consisting of only a bare drive to consume. People forget all of this because humans are at the top of the food chain.
If life is like this, I guess I don't expect the afterlife to be much better. Except this time, we're at the bottom of the food chain.