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I know that goes without saying, but like... this fucking place.

I applied to this place back in November, and they called me for a full-time retail position. I found it interesting that I applied back to them in November but they just now called me back. To me, it signaled a level of desperation that made me have decent hopes about my chances, so I ended up taking a bus ride there (which wasn't even a very long one, thankfully), and I go in to interview on the time we scheduled.

The interviewer ends up telling me, "We're actually not hiring for that position I told you about. We're hiring for a managerial position instead."

I was about to snap, but I kept my cool really well.

I told her, "I'm not interested in a managerial position. I don't have managerial experience."

And this old white lady had the caucasity to tell me, "I was gonna call you ahead of time and tell you that I wanted to interview for a different position instead, but, I figured I would just tell you when you show up since the time for the interview was already close!"

Are you serious? I could've saved the fucking bus fare and preparing for all of this shit if you just called me and gave me that update, but instead, nope. She waits for me to get there and everything only to tell me something that made it all pointless.

I have been interviewing excessively. I have to be very careful about how I plan each interview because bus rides take preparation, especially if they are very far. Though I've applied for a shitload of jobs on Thursday, Friday, and even some today, I probably won't hear back from many of these places until Monday because, y'know, it's the weekend.

I must note that the volume of applications I send has expanded greatly since I opened myself up to very distant places, but still, when you're getting disrespected like this, it's hard to maintain hope.

I do have a one-sided video interview that I have complete, and I'll do it either today or tomorrow.

My birthday is a week from now, and it's probably going to be one of the most somber birthdays of my life, to be honest.

Thanks for everyone who's been supportive. Any emotional support and uplifting is greatly valued at this time. I'm not feeling well.