I dont really know why im posting this, i guess i just want to be told im not a bad person probably. I've decided I have to give my dog back to the shelter i got him from. He's got minor behavioral problems that could likely be fixed with good enough training, something ive found i dont have the dedication for but really the problem is that i am unable to provide enough exercise for him. He's a border collie/lab mix and i live in a condo; yeah ik, fucking dumb ass mistake. In the end i am simply unwilling/unable to take him to the dog park (where he doesnt get along with any dog or human) and chase him around for the 2 hours minimum he needs, each day, to finally relax somewhat. i shouldve know better, im not a fucking kid, this was so easily avoidable.
i know its ultimately better for him to go back and have a chance to find an owner with a lot of space for him but i just feel like this demonstrates i am not the kind & patient person i thought i was. Not only will i be without human company for the rest of my life but now it feels like even canine companionship is out of the question.
I dunno im probably just catastrophizing. i do that sometimes
Getting a high-energy dog while living in a condo wasn't great judgement, but you're also showing good judgement by admitting that you aren't up to the task instead of powering through, which would not be good for you or for the dog.
Everyone makes mistakes. Admitting them and growing from them is what really demonstrates our character.