This post was genuinely inspired by the post about adult pacifiers that was posted on the site some days ago. Some background, long post:
I started smoking on and off at fourth grade, the first drag and I was like "omg this makes me feel so good", it never tasted bad to me. Then come middle school and age 13 I started to truly smoke and kept going for 20ish years straight. At the end I was almost a two packs a day person running fully on extremely hard exercise, nicotine and caffeine. Ngl it never felt bad, the opposite really and my ability to function was pretty good plus the smoking gave me the social out and the ability to relax that I needed.
Then vapes became available online and as I had always assumed smoking to be an oral plus a fidgeting thing for me, I decided to try that. I left my pack of smokes unfinished the day I got the vape and been doing that ever since, over ten years now. I've only fallen off the wagon once for three months or so after the first covid years and in hindsight I think it was me dropping the nicotine amount too low as it was a time when gicarette smoke started to suddenly smell good to me again. I hated the smell from the moment I started vaping and hate it again now that I raised the nicotine level back to what it was.
I am self-diagnosed audhd and currently don't have access to a diagnosis, my employment healtcare deems it unnecessary as I am currently "performing" well. I get that medication would probably help, but it isn't an option. I've made my peace with the fact that I self-medicate with nicotine and it probably harms me, but am increasingly worried about dragging stuff into my lungs all day long.
So as I think this is an oral + lung + hand stim along with a nicotine thing, I am wondering if anyone here has found something sort of like smoking, but not vaping, that could replace it as a stim? Fidget spinners or such don't work for me. I am thinking the sucking and mouth touching is needed, as weird as it maybe sounds. Hello Freud, I was bottle fed as a baby :D (bad joke).
Considering trying nicotine pouches and something, but I've no idea what that something could be. Thoughts?
I drink loose leaf tea all the time, but have never chewed the leaves. I'll give it a try. Thank you.