Seriously, I wanna go 
every time I read some carrer growth opportunity bullshit. It's either a job or it isn't.
I really despise anything remotely related to linkedin or whatever kind of creature dwells in that place. Can everyone do this stuff? Like, is this really how everyone gets a job? I can't deal with all this pretending, everything requires having a linkedin profile, but not only that, you gotta sell yourself somehow. And I don't even use social media.
Well, I have a bachelor's degree from a good University, I'm good at what I do, here's a portfolio. But no, I have to prove I deserve to be selected as a producer of wealth for my potential boss by pretending to be someone else. Can't we all just be practical about this shit? I have to keep trying to put myself into boxes and trying to fit with a sort of profile that I just can't and don't know why.
Am I autistic? Like, do I go get a diagnosis and maybe that will help? Do I go do something on my own? Then I have to figure out what an then sell it, and I'm bad at that. I don't know what to do and I'm tired of trying. (I was almost crying while writing this paragraph).
Honestly though, I just wanted to rant and this is one of the few places I feel safer in. Thanks for reading my 
rambling
This is what tricked me down the cooking for a living path. Kitchens are pretty much the only places that getting a job isn't a nightmare. Talk to a chef, if you know about food talk a lil shop, if not you're probably aiming for dish anyway but if you show some interest or even just have solid knife skills to help out with prep and if you've got fuck all that's not bad either cause it they're the ones teaching you, you'll be doing it their way. Id rather train someone from dish up that's easy to work with than some arrogant recent culinary school grad. Then usually you get a short trial shift to just make sure you're not entirely incapable of doing the job and that the rest of the staff doesn't think you're a weird creep or whatever and then you're in. The twist is that it's a brutal job that doesn't pay good.