I'm with you bro. But I feel like at least a few of my problems are self inflicted. I need to get up, get out, move around, sleep right, eat right, drink water, and build community. There's a torrent of bad but I want to be part of making things better, y'know?
Easier said than done, but also the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step? Idk take care brother
I don't think dreams necessarily have meaning. They /can/ be about things you've been thinking about or stressing about. But I think their internal logic means little. I've had some which were total nonsense. I suspect it's more valuable to look at the emotions which were being experienced during the dream than the plot itself.