andros_rex

I guess what always melted my brain was putting everything in terms of the dr dtheta etc of the surface.

With the “Micheal Obama” shit, they have two specific missing children’s cases that they claim Malia and Sasha secretly are. It’s ghoulish.

Peter Thiel recently put on a four talk series, sponsored by a “Christian” organization, where he suggested that anti-AI people are the Antichrist.

During the 70’s, outlets like Soldier of Forture recruited US and UK citizens to go slaughter black people in Rhodesia.

I only managed a “D” in E&M (why are surface integrals). Do I have to detransition?

I taught middle school briefly. I had a student that was sexually harassing another one of my students. Using “[student’s name] GYATT” as a nickname in kahoots and shit. The student being harassed had also transferred in from being homeschooled all her life - no experience dealing with this kind of shit.

Admin refused to do anything. I rearranged my seating chart to put them as far away from each other as possible, but admin blew me off when I asked if the problem student could be transferred to another class. Nope! Left me on read.

It’s insidious in Oklahoma. I imagine it’s the same in Louisiana. They really do not care about sexual harassment. It’s the “good old boy” system, where they refuse to consider it as anything more than a minor issue.

I found out my mom had spent three decades of my life lying about who my biological father was.

She has always spun some romantic bullshit story about a specific guy. Like I’m talking there was a whole ass story of her life leading up to my conception that she liked to tell me. A pretty fucked up story - she was a teenager, this guy was in his early twenties. But still, a mostly normal and consensual story barring the statuary aspect, not at all shocking where we live. He knocks her up, chickens out immediately, dumps her, etc. There was even a cathartic story about her being a then abandoned pregnant Sonic carhop, discovering the guy as a customer and throwing fries at his face. She describes my eyes and hair as his.

I reach out to the guy as a teenager with help from family, who keep track of this guy throughout the years in case I’d want to ever make connection. I reach out, he denies that he’s my father. Well, sucks, but nothing too unexpected.

As a lark, I get genetics testing kit one year. It’s on Amazon prime (back when that was a good deal and back before I realized how problematic that giving my DNA to a random company.)

I take the test. A woman reaches out. My aunt. And she’s not the sister of my “father.”

My biological father was a different adult man (mid twenties) who raped a teenager he met at a party. Even told me to my face that he hadn’t been interested in her, but more in her older sister.

When I confronted her with this. It was a non reaction. It was “oh.” She’s told so many lies throughout her life, but this was finally the one she couldn’t bullshit her way out of. She lied to me for thirty years, and unlike any other lie she’s told, there‘s no “oh you’re just remembering it differently” or “I didn’t really mean that.”

The most difficult thing is that maybe it was traumatic for her. Maybe it was violent. I’ve met him twice, and neither experience was really pleasant. He has a history. Maybe she did block it out, repress it in that Freudian way and did convince herself that some guy she had a crush on and her had some secret little tryst. Realizing maybe the hell of my childhood had an explanation - that she was trying to punish me, that she hated me as a symbol of rape. Can I forgive her for that?

It’s just such a complicated and difficult thing to wrap my head around. Nothing about her as a person has ever made any sense.

It matters a little more I think, because Coke’s aesthetic is a part of “Americana” - people collect vintage Coke advertising. (And it’s a broad enough hobby to have niches; I had a professor that was specifically focused on how African Americans have been depicted in Coke ads in his collecting)

If you put any stock into what capitalism promises - Coke ads are supposed to be the best of the best. Coke doesn’t need to advertise to inform you that Coke exists. Coke holiday ads are supposed to be a spectacle, to encourage you to associate things like Christmas itself with the soda. Their advertising has changed how Americans picture Santa even. There were good artists who got paid, and you got advertising that was more to be trying to make you feel positive feelings/some appreciation of the aesthetics.

It’s just another symptom of late stage capitalism - that the interaction between the business and the customer must be hostile. They can’t pretend that their advertising is meant to be for our benefit. Like yeah, obviously as cynic lemmings we know advertisers are always full of shit, but I think for most normies the Coke ads have always been at least mildly interesting part of seeing a movie during the Christmas season.

Every update decreases the amount of people you can see. Frequent, full page ads that cannot be closed out and will open up a webpage/the App Store as you try to hit the “x.” You’ll “accidentally” hit the $99.99 monthly purchase somehow because everything moves around after your conversations load and have to exit out of the confirmation for that. There are a ridiculous amount of Only Fans and bots. Often the app would rather connect you to people hundreds of miles away rather than the people in your immediate area.

Anger subsided all the other emotions for me as far as climate change. There were people who knew. There’s something along the order of magnitude of 100 people who chose to obfuscate science and sacrifice us all for profit. I hate those people. I can’t even feel sad because I hate them so much.

Hundreds of people detained at the Alligator Alcatraz immigration processing center west of Miami, Florida, appear to have vanished. They have disappeared from the Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) online database, and their lawyers and families have been unable to locate them, according to immigrant advocacy groups.

Buddhist sexual proscriptions ban homosexual sexual activity and heterosexual sex through orifices other than the vagina, including masturbation or other sexual activity with the hand. Buddhist proscriptions also forbid sex at certain times - such as during full and half moon days, the daytime, and during a wife's menstrual period or pregnancy - or near shrines or temples. Adultery is considered sexual misconduct, but the hiring of a female prostitute for penile-vaginal sex is not, unless one pays a third party to procure the person.

From a "Buddhist point of view," lesbian and gay sex "is generally considered sexual misconduct," the Dalai Lama told reporters at a press conference a day earlier.

How many predominantly Buddhist countries have legalized gay marriage?

While there may be nothing the Buddha said about homosexuality, actual Buddhist practice and belief is not solely based on textual sayings in the Pali Canon.