Tomato_Queen

Although I do not take HRT, I am very lucky to look like the "defined female beauty standard", unfortunately they keep what I think is "body shaming" me, they treat me like a cis man and keep telling me to cut my hair. A lot of times it feels like my interaction with them is not with me but with what a stereotype of a "man should be" as if I am their "gay best friend" without being allowed to show my queerness or femininity. Kids describe me as talking like Richard from Unikitty.

A few incidents that made not feel good: one time we were walking together chatting about something and then they started walking faster, so I started walking faster too, and then after a few seconds they turned around and yelled "STOP CHASING US", I stopped and later when we met in class I told them to clarify next time when we are supposed to split up, they nodded but never actually clarified when we had to split up. Another thing they often do, but I do not like is that they act controlling to me telling me what and what not to do like one time I spoke with a guy she kept staring at me, later she told me "when I stare at you like that you stop talking". One more thing is that they keep talking to me about my imaginary wife, I never brought up marriage with them ever, they just talk about "your future wife will hate you" "no woman will marry you because you are short and stingy".

About the body shaming, I am very short and skinny, my rib bones are visible, I got shamed a lot for the way I ate as a kid. I also one time had a full bus ride conversation with a middle aged woman who thought I was a cis woman the whole way through. These two make me feel bad about my body.