I think I'm going to discuss it with a bunch of people I'm close to that have gone through similar things.
I've had these thoughts before, but got stuck on not really having a name that I'm comfortable with. But two nights ago I found a name and it felt like the floodgates opened.
I feel like the sort of femme that wears cargo pants and boots, which is convenient for me. Maybe less loose clothing though. My fingernails are large and smooth, very good for painting on. I've transferred warhammer decals onto them before.
I've thought about it a lot, even while entertaining masculinity. Dark hair and mid tone skin means its visible even if I have just shaved, and its kinda patchy to begin with. I did look up prices yesterday
Look at this dope ass bear covered in cocaine
His character introduction is being the sort of loser that tailors his corpo slop security uniform and argues with his superiors about following the rules (on the side of rules).
Hey, my egg cracked and its been a sleepless couple of days. My mind has been racing about how I want to be, who do I come out to, imagining people's reactions etc. Uh, what do I do now?
I've done nothing regarding trans thoughts over the last couple of days, but I did think about building a set of mechanical spider legs that I could float around on. I think I actually have all the requisite skills, though its been a while since I've done any metalwork. If I fire up solidworks I can probably generate a bunch of laser cutting patterns. I do not have space for this project.