Oskolki

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[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 1 points 1 hour ago

I thought I should let you know that I ended up giving him a follow. I'm glad I managed to fail here otherwise I wouldn't have learned about him. We should dare to fail more.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 4 points 4 hours ago

Recently I tried to make a point that the petty bourgeoise or Labor Aristocracy care more about Legos than Human life. Like this kind of stuff is their major life worry: Police arrest man who replaced US$34,000 worth of Lego pieces with pasta

Even if they do care about it there is so much suffering around the world neoliberalism is incapable of solving and eventually your body physically becomes incapable of feeling the emotion, because the reaction was emotional at that point the person disengages. If you hang around libs you inevitably run into them basically seeing the masses as a unified blob of suffering and they don't really reason much beyond skin deep understanding of the world. A lot of them get scammed often, they try to "fix" this issue by doing awareness campaigns and all this bullshit, but it never works because I mean Marx has already written about it in great detail when he and Engels were observing the world and nothing much has changed in the socioeconomic department.

The people who do continuously go out to protest are likely those who directly face problems themselves that they cannot escape, but those people also have like no power and they aren't united. There's been 250 years of destruction of social fabric. There is a sort of leftist pipeline to get these people out on the streets or into orgs, but nobody is doing an effort to do a counter-propaganda on countries like People's Korea, none of that pro-socialist stuff reaches the petty bourgeoise or labor aristocracy who are emotional, not rational. Some people think ah now with generated slop we can finally outslop the slop, but do they not realize majority of the people you're trying to target with your AI, the people who haven't changed, have been conditioned to loathe AI and see it as disingenuous the moment they find out it's been used.

There probably isn't going to be a big change until something like an economic crash happens, but the crash is inevitable. Anyone who cares about how life will be within the next 10 years should organize, because it could happen in 5 and eventually it'll happen tomorrow.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 2 points 13 hours ago (2 children)

You're right I left a reactionary take, the actual situation is more nuanced.

Also Squid Game is the perfect movie to show on big screen in People's Korea for sure, it's an artistic portrayal of life under Capitalism.Basically you can go through insurmountable amount of struggle and reach the very end like player 456 and you reward will be at best some cash for your family and nothing is going to change, at best your kid is going to be ignorant of the game and at worst they'll join it and probably lose. Or they could also work for the game which is technically the safest option once you hit rot bottom, but you need to sacrifice your "soul" and do whatever you are told to be in that position. The fact that they keep making sequels of the movie and it can't end because profit is a cherry on top."

But you know what they say. Writers under Capitalism often write the best critiques of it. Even if they are unaware and lack class consciousness, it makes their life absolutely miserable.

Also I was probably just having PTSD from The Irony of Fate. But it's just a reactionary response I doubt the Union fell because of cultural propaganda alone, can you blame me that much tho? (yes) China does restrict access to some anime afaik and I've asked locals to confirm I sadly don't know any Koreans which makes it kinda tricky to figure out what's true or not. I've seen they have a gaming cafe now too so I'm sure there's been movies avaiable with western stuff too, probably vetted tho' not all of em, but majority are avaiable (I would guess)

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 3 points 1 day ago

Have you heard of 300?

Has a nice rhyme with a tractorist

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 20 points 1 day ago (9 children)

Meanwhile DPRK bans piracy because they understand cultural imperialism an don't want to get colonized by foreign media. kim-cool

Of course to a Westerner this is incomprehensible to choose to make your own movie instead of pirating one.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 13 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Есть еще Американцы, они па весь мир ползут а из амереки некогда не шаг даже не ступили. Вам точно не стыдно?

Я знаю даже некоторых которая не умеют говорить по Эньлжишь, ну по характеру ани идэнтитиския.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 6 points 1 day ago

Anything metaphysical can be interpreted however you wish. That's the thing about metaphysics.

Concepts like Demons are a combination of multiple different alienated experiences, they are not direct experience. Alienation allows for appropriation and anything can be appropriated. Because the dominant forces in our society are Rightists they come out on top, if we had a Socialist society we'd be discussing how the concept of needing to be able to imagine something in order to be able to accomplish it very relevant to our current predicament.

Anyone wants to eat some humble pie? I often see this meme floating around: "How to stay humble when you're right about everything."

Well you got the future you imagined happening. There is no grand design, no great plan, only the choices we make, that we reuse or are unable to change simply makes one seem prescient. Can anyone here actually imagine winning over the fascists? I certainly cannot imagine defeating them. So of course just like everyone else I'm looking for a party of heroes to come and save me. And you can't imagine me being a hero either and neither can I imagine you being a hero. So to speak our collective self-esteem is at a rock bottom.

Meanwhile the rightists do not give a damn about anything, the intellectual rightists are the worst ones because they can live double lives, they can reap the rewards of exploitation and sell you socialist treats with no remorse, they'll even fight by your side when it's beneficial to them. Now you could argue that's the Demon right there, unfortunately afaik. Demons are incapable of change in the show? And based on the critique I have receive I have to say that anyone is able to be reformed, even a Nazi can make the choice to do better.

Which does make it kind of of odd to be in leftist spaces? At least online. Because then I also hear terms like "Baltoid" https://hexbear.net/post/7268076/6809134 or people from Israel can be dehumanized entirely f.ex https://hexbear.net/post/8223929/7092843 and I agree these are both not good states, but if you are from amerikkka it's objectively far worse than either of these two places so can we at least get like equal treatment if I'm gonna be labeled as subhuman?

If people are allowed to call me a baltoid why can't I do it to Americans? And idm call me all you want, but it does seem rather strange how to Americans USA is diverse, but every other country is inhabited by copy-paste people who are all the same and can't be changed. Of course because you're supposed to be doing the regime change for me, is it? I should probably stop interacting with online USians because the hypocrisy is kind of grating.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 5 points 1 day ago

If anyone could figure out immortality it's got to be communists, they could even figure out how to bring you back to life, if you actually gave a shit about life. They're not gonna regenerate a fascist, why would they? A fascist hates life and finds it miserable, so no need.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 26 points 1 day ago

I think if you gave these people real power you'd re-create a sort of Khmer Rouge.

Skin deep understanding of what communism is, incredibly unrealistic goals that serve no reasonable purpose, turn 5 year plan into 5 day plan. America even has a really high illiteracy rate, and I see a lot of "Stalin didn't go far enough" memes.

Well careful what you wish for. Some go so far they think communism is reactionary and they've moved beyond that. Just get rid of all classes immediately. uh-oh

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 13 points 1 day ago (2 children)
[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 1 points 2 days ago* (last edited 2 days ago)

There's a word to describe what's been happening and it's: Corruption. Words have a lot of power, however, a single action can ruin a century of lies. Which then causes cognitive dissonance, a fight or flight response. This is when the subject, who has been invaded by contradictory words, has to either let the synthesis happen or stop it.

I myself am guilty of this. I have noticed this phenomenon in a lot of isolated, principled people. We don't like to talk about ourselves, but we talk a lot about how insignificant we are. Unfortunately the global class consciousness levels are very low, as such I remain buried and lacking the support of a revolutionary movement.

These are personally the major contradictions my own family has had to deal with and my own history:

  • a young woman being forced into marriage flees to the countryside, where she finds my great-grandfather, someone from a long line of peasantry. At least that's the story I was told, they never opened up about their past in details.

  • a hard working peasant seeks work in a newly constructed socialist town, this is where he meets my grandmother, her family has a complex history where they've lost property to Auxiliary Police seizing their housing materials, then the Nazi advancement took away men, some volunteered, my grandmother's father decided to sacrifice his leg in order to stay with his family, anxious they wouldn't make it without him.

  • The newly constructed town has a big factory, huge, maybe even the biggest around, but nobody has put on a smoke filter on the big chimney and health issues start happening, the leadership however does address it relatively quickly for the time being and health improved drastically. People are hopeful and looking forward to a bright future, earned through hard work.

  • USSR collapses and all that work goes down the drain. Given the size of the town and if I conservatively assume that people are slackers and only work for 1000 hours a year we lost about 30.000 years of human development. (In working hours, and this does not include reproductive labor) (Of course a lot of it isn't lost, rather appropriated by oligarchs)

  • Due to return of reactionary sentiments my mother is neglected and my family focuses on her brother, my mom marries into a failson who's jubilant and exited for the bright future him and his forest brothers were pushed into ruining us into (My paternal grandpa was so eager to share his exploitations at work, so I have had a decent understanding of what freedom means, from a very young age), he also carried the Mormon bible (likely a link of where they got their funding from)

  • Of course as we all know when capital booms, there must be a bust, ironically forcing my now free father work extra hard, makes his life precarious, pushes him into alcoholism and abusive tendencies etc. Eventually this leads to divorce, my mother running into a really bad person who for my own privacy sake i can't talk about in detail.

  • I'm born in this wacky family, who has no time for me and I just end up watching soviet cartoons all day and mostly raised by my grandparents, who still teach me to be upright and just, which is really sweet, but such a mindset is unsustainable in our world. But then later I am also raised by my paternal grandparents who are selfishly petite bourgeoise which ends up giving me a personality disorder.

  • I get sent to school where I stick out like a sore thumb, also get like low-key xenophobia for speaking Russian, my paternal fam never liked us very much sometimes in anger we'd get called dirty Russians, which my family isn't even from Russia they're Belarussian lukashenko-tired but honestly it was relatively minor inconvenience compared to the issues I faced from my neurological disability, which made raising me extra hard for my family.

  • My family did look for support at the doctors, they were recommended to check me out for ADHD, but the doctor who tested for it found nothing amiss and simply recommended behavioral therapy, my family did send me to a private specialized kindergarten as per recommendations. (Private school was too expensive) The stereotypical "gifted child" scenario happens leading into burnout.

  • As puberty hits I start experiencing severe bouts of dysphoria and this leads me to questions what's up with that. This is when I find out about transgender people and I'm relieved there's a fix, but then I find out how much people hate me and it makes me fall into a pitfall where I've given up completely.

  • My close childhood friends group eventually finds out and disbands, leaving me completely alone. This is when i decide to give it my all and start looking for an exit route and eventually I find one in another country, someone is willing to help out. I end up flying to Geneva thinking I'd finally see a doctor, a professional who can help me.

  • The kind friend turns out didn't listen to a word I said, they just wanted to help me and acted emotionally, they didn't even look for if there's a doctor avaiable I can go to, instead they expected me to be 100% able to do all the things I need help with and then, eventually send me back home. (Btw this is a multi millionaire family, they could have easily afforded to just take me to a doc, if they so cared.) This also illustrates how arrogant and ignorant the petty bourgeoise are.

  • Eventually, through the support of kind strangers who kept me afloat and my one friend who chose to stick around I do get the ADHD diagnosis with 20 years of delay and I've been transitioning somewhat okay, although I face a lot of legal challenges.

  • Now I've read a lot of theory and my history makes sense, why I am the way I am and what to do.

Despite all my efforts, no matter what I do by myself or with a ragtag team of strangers, society just doesn't seem ready to pull my hand. It would take very little effort for a group of well organized people to completely re-habilitate me and we could accomplish a lot together, but everyone's judgment is too clouded, they are incapable for seeing the potential. And I know that my contributions will probably end up buried in the shadows of history, but I will still try to build even if just a little path for the people who come after me. And I'm honestly terrified, what if the fascist spot me and decide to get rid of me? They're far more powerful than I am and I'm almost completely alone.

Ironic isn't it? I've repeatedly been called a narcissist, sometimes psychopath, a monster, but my deeds show otherwise. I've accomplished all of what I have with so incredibly little. Imagine how much a well oiled machine organized machine could accomplish. I don't see why something wonderful isn't going to happen and it might be quite soon with the recent events going on. I am just a human being. I really wish someone was game enough to place their trust in me.

I still take the blame for being unable to come up with the right words to convince people.

An Addendum:

I still think it can be a good thing to censor specific words because it teaches people to switch them out and it removes power from the words. I draw my line at thought crimes, but nothing stops me from using different languages with different individuals. This is a private platform, not a public organization. Hexbear is like walking into a strangers house, it's not a government and has no aspirations to become one. if this house is not comfy for someone they can find a new one for themselves, if they want to change society then they have to do politics, policing without a government is just syndicalism, policing without power is even more silly it's just harassment and you either need to conform with the statue quo to do it or you will be squashed.

[–] Oskolki@hexbear.net 16 points 2 days ago (1 children)

This stuff never gets to me, cook whatever you enjoy, however i will judge people severely for wasting food -intentionally- okay intentionally I'm not coming after you for accidentally letting an orange rot or something or blaming people who lack education due to their environment.

This content encourages food waste, while there's people hungry, I think it's an insult to humanity if I'm to be blunt. Why not learn proper technique for cooking large portion meals and do it for a community at least? I'm sure there's a lovely person doing that already, but they don't get any much traction on videos. Maybe someone knows and wants to share? I think it would be nice to help get people caring for others some traction.

 

This might be the worst thing I've made, so far.

 

I have been discussing my beliefs with a set of close knit friends I've acquired over the years, practically they participated in community building and aren't against my beliefs. With the elephant in the room being that they think it's simply not feasible, due to our various life experiences.

Their main argument that I can't get through is the fact that, at the end of the day, we all will justify one life over another. Which inevitably causes hierarchical divide. They believe that all of us come up with our own way to cope with this reality of the world, with our own individual set of beliefs and reasoning.

And it's difficult for me to argue against them. I can't deny the fact that in order for many people to survive they're forced to fawn, they're forced to give up their individuality and study your behavior, study what kind of things you react to well and what you react to poorly. I have to intentionally hide my needs, my flaws, develop a connection with you and then I have to trickly in the things I actually care about, which now because I've built a connection with you, will make you empathize with me and might encourage you to keep me alive.

Am I wrong to prioritize my own survival? And how do you define survival: is it just the fulfillment of biological function and living under no threat of violence?

I have an incredibly difficult time figuring out how would socialism immerge in a world full of hypocrisy. Everyone wants me to contribute to their cause, they have their own set of priorities, their own families and friends, are they more important than my friends, my family? That's who I've been fighting for.

If the only people willing to help me are your enemy and you're unwilling to do anything, should my family suffer for your sake? I see Anarchists and Left Wing Nationalists constantly being shit on, yet they're the only people who helped me despite our disagreements. Socialists who I interact with treat me like an automaton who is to obey their order.

How can I convince the most vulnerable people to have faith in a project that doesn't even acknowledge their worth or existence? They have lost all faith in socialism not because they haven't read the books. Marx was mandatory in school for my parents generation still, they made thousands upon thousands of people read this great theory of yours so why did it fail?

But that's not what this is about. I am just genuinely lost for how to convince people, they won't budge because they can immediately see though the hypocrisy and call it out. I can't do anything but to agree with them. What am I supposed to tell them? I have already overcome so much of my personal desires for the sake of the people and there's just more problems and more problems every year. The more I sacrifice the more of a fool I look like. Everyone is literally begging me to stop helping people at this point and call me weird for not treating myself. And I have been wanting to stop so badly I wish I had the time to read the fun books or do something exciting.

And that's why I struggle to convince anyone. They know that you will walk right past me and consider me a fool for not doing the same to you. Seriously how is this possible when the only choices I have is either devour myself for the sake of people who watch it happen and don't do anything or watch on how other people perish in front of my own eyes and I choose to value the people I care about over them.

I really want to believe socialism is possible, but I don't see the experience to back it up. Somebody please change my mind.

 

I'm dealing with a complicates set of circumstances so I'm going to keep this as specific as I can. After prolonged failures to acquire some sort of stability I've decided to us what capabilities I have to create something. I fully expect complete failure, you don't need to discourage me further, it won't accomplish anything.

I'm writing a non-traditional media piece combining a book with the format of a comic. I'm sure it's been done before already, but I want to know if anyone can help me with a publishing guide. My health has been deteriorating lately and I'd like anything I make to be directed towards my family, in case something happens, hopefully it doesn't come to that and I can actually finish the work.

My family doesn't understand what I'm doing and they're not very savvy in this stuff (to tell you the truth they still think I'm the same person I was 20 years ago just playing videogames, just for context of why I haven't simply asked them.) and please don't be mad at them they've been traumatized enough or busy doing 12 hour workdays. I'm sorry I have to rely on a stranger for something seemingly so simple, but that's all I ask for.

I just want to have a setup for in case I'm gone my half-assed work can at least give them a little bit of a solace. Which for the record I really would love to be able to finish it and I hope I can, just been feeling awful.

(Also I have already reached out to local orgs. They seem to have no interes in as much as scheduling a meeting with me, it's been about a year since I've attempted to contact the last one and they've stopped replying to me after I offered to volunteer and asked if there's anything I can do to help.)

A a side request, if anyone knows if it's feasible at all for someone like me to get trained in Explosive ordnance disposal and where do I sign up that would be appreciated. Although I'm guessing I probably don't qualify.

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submitted 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) by Oskolki@hexbear.net to c/askchapo@hexbear.net
 

Every time I spend some time browsing the comment sections of the internet I kind of want to give up on everything. I don't because I know it's wrong, but the psychic damage is severe. And I'm doing all this sober.

Sometimes I wish I was more intelligent and could participate in more serious projects, but I'm not worthy and nobody seems to want to accept me. Which is fair idk why they'd accept me when there's always a superior choice that's faster, better, stronger than myself. Why would an org recruit me? Especially when you can automate so much nowadays, why would they have me there?

It feels like I'm just a rusty cog and why would anyone want to put that in their machine when there's brand new ones and the social machines need less and less cogs?

I'm not naive enough to expect the entire world to change itself to benefit me, someone they didn't even ask to be born. So why should people give a shit about the poor decisions of my parents? The sad things is afaik my father's out there making even more children. Be careful what you wish for when you boost your population numbers. Look at what you get. I'm completely useless.

 

You should gather a bunch of people ask ask them, questions, hold discussions, demand action.

Study if there's any difference in the behavior between the machines and humans. My hypothesis is that a human is capable of insubordination, while a machine cannot do that, unless programmed to.

So if you want to make actual "intelligence" make a machine that can disobey your orders. Unfortunately it seem like most people would rather turn themselves into a machine. Something that can input, output, copy and paste, but never synthesize...

 

This is a dead ditch rank with despair’s backwater. A brisk wind can’t raise a ripple from its skin. Why not junk some more scrap tin and copper here, or dump your rotten dinner leftovers in.

Maybe the copper will turn to an emerald green, and peach blossoms bloom out of the tin pots’ rust. Then let the grease weave a layer of silk brocade where germs brew a mist like twilit clouds at dusk.

Let the dead ditchwater ferment to green liquor bubbling up floating pearls out of its white foam, little pearls growing to bigger pearls in chuckles that burst when liquor-raiding mosquitos come.

And so a dead ditch rank with despair’s backwater can claim something lively, bright and all its own. If the frogs here can’t handle the solitude this stagnant muck can gurgle them up a tune!

This is a dead ditch rank with despair’s backwater. No place for a Thing of Beauty in its juice. Let’s just let Hellion Ugliness culture it and see what kind of world it can produce.

Translated by A.Z. Foreman


I've been down on my luck lately and I came across this Poet while researching Anna Louise Strong, they're buried in the same cemetery. I hope my art and writing has even 0.0001% impact theirs has had. None of the locals seem to want to work with me, idk if it's because I lack the skills, am being replaced by machines or it's due to prejudices, but it's a shame I truly just wished to make the world a better place.

It kind of bothers me because I think every human being who's willing is capable of learning, but to be treated as being unable to learn makes me feel like I'm being treated as less than human. I hope one day prejudices will be able to be set aside and the world will be full of flowing fresh waters, for everybody.

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