JayJLeas

I know I'm not cis, but that's about it. I'm AFAB, I would like to appear more masculine, I have dysphoria around my chest and genitals and would like them to be more masculine, but I want to present as a femboy or a twink, I don't want facial hair or curves and I want a deeper voice. I like the idea of people not knowing what gender I am when they look at me. But at the same time neither she/her not he/him feel right for me, and I'm happier when people use they/them. Part of me thinks I don't need a label, but at the same time I feel like I need a way do describe and identify myself. Can anyone help? I feel so confused.

I got my first IM injection (self-administered, under doctor supervision), it's been almost a week now and my leg still hurts and I've had a couple of moments where the muscle feels a bit swollen... Is this normal? Will my body "get used to it" and stop reacting like this eventually?

I just got my first car and I was thinking I should probably get a dash cam since it has to stay in the driveway, but I feel out of my depth. I don't have a lot of money so I'm hoping for one that is at most around AU$100. I also think covering both front and rear would be best, but obviously will take advice on that regard. Are there any specific ones you would recommend? I feel completely out of my depth. Also, I'm located in Australia if that makes a difference.

I had a dream last night that the sex characteristics of the genders were switched, so women had penises, facial hair, etc., and men had vaginas, boobs, etc., but in every other way (e.g. socially) everything else was the same. In this scenario do you think you would identify as the other gender?

I'm a trans man, and though it feels weird to think about, I think I would identify as a woman in that scenario, but I found the concept interesting and wondered what other people would think.

I got this tattoo near the end of last year, and I feel like the text has become a sort of personal mantra this year, especially with everything happening around the world and the attempts to erase us LGBTQ+ people. I'm not dead. We're not dead. I won't lay down and give up. Granny Weatherwax would fight, and so shall I. I shall keep living my life.

My partner and I are in a long distance relationship, we've been together for 5 years. From the start, the plan was that I would move there, but he didn't start the application because he wanted to get a stable job (he was working when we met but quit around 2022 when they expected everyone to move from remote back to on-site).
Last year he told me that if Trump gets in he'd move here instead (he's American). My family expressed doubts about his sincerity, so I confirmed with him multiple times and he insisted.
Now he's saying that he never thought Trump would actually get in, so I shouldn't have taken him seriously. We fought about it and when I said he went back on his word he says I went back on mine since I haven't moved there yet and am now saying I don't want to because of everything happening and I don't feel safe (I'm trans, and even if I wasn't foreigners aren't being treated well from what I've heard).
He's now saying he doesn't want to leave his mom, which is fair, but I feel conflicted about it all. I feel like he's broken my trust, but he's adamant he didn't lie because he never actually expected this to happen.
He also thinks everything is being exaggerated and isn't really as bad as I think it is, especially where he is on the west coast. He says it's safe there, but I wonder for how long. He says if it gets worse we can move here, but how can I trust that? I feel like he's burying his head in the sand (he responded that I'm burying my head in the sand) and ignoring how bad it's going to be, but maybe he's right and I'm stressing too much? At the start of the year he agreed with me about how bad it is but now he doesn't seem to think it's that bad.
Mostly I just want advice I guess, an outside perspective. I don't know how to feel and I'm conflicted about it all.

I hate bathing (ASD) but I do it every day because it is Required and Expected. Most of the time I get in and do what I need to and get out, but occasionally I get this urge to be really thorough and scrub really hard with the rough sponge. Does anyone else get these random urges? I don't have OCD as far as I know and it doesn't happen often.

I hope it's okay for me to post here. I really want to wear a binder but I struggle with the ones you pull over your head. I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions for ones that you can wrap around sort of? I know there are some with zips or clasps or other methods, I'm just not sure what's good. I'm a bit overweight, so I'm worried that it might sit weird or roll up or be uncomfortable, and I worry that ones with underarm fastening would be a sensory nightmare, but also that front fastening would be visible. Does anyone have any experiences to share that might be helpful? Thanks in advance.

I spoke to my abusive mum recently. She'd said she felt like I didn't like her, so I thought I'd tell her how I felt, outline what she put me through. I'm not sure if it was the best idea. She apologised but she also kept repeating "I'm only human". I'm also human, but I can't imagine ever doing to someone what she did to me. I don't know. I don't feel like it's a valid reason. I'm not sure how to feel. If her only reasoning is that she's "only human" is it enough? I don't feel like it is but I know I won't get anything more from her, and I feel like she expects it to be all good between us now. Would that be enough for you? How do I move on or at least move forward?

My gender therapist told me this in response to something I said referencing my chest. It was a while ago but it's stuck with me. I'm wondering what you all think of this comment? The comment felt disqualifying, like I was less male for calling my chest a "breast", or I would be seen as less male because of it, but I can be pretty sensitive so I might be overthinking and she might be right that men don't talk like that.