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yeah that's depression. You aren't a coward for not skipping to the end. If anything its the opposite. It takes chutzpah to keep going in an ever darkening world when death is inevitable.
And hey, it can get brighter. Things do get better sometimes. I spent a long time in and out of a similar funk but I got out. Not that everything is great but I haven't thought about checking out in a long time.
Hang in there.
Sorry to hear this. I feel the same. Life is so hard for so many people, every day is a struggle and never ending stress. If you want to talk to someone in private, you can PM me.