Yeah, there's plenty of sucky people unfortunately.
I'm sorry you're hurting.
Fwiw, and I know it isn't worth much, I think you being willing to address the issues the way you do is a good thing. It's one of the things that edged me across the line into believing you aren't trolling. You've made me, personally, think harder about several issues, and even shift my opinions a good bit. Dunno if you remember me saying I'd think about what you said regarding neopronouns. But I did, and I still am. You, your words, shifted my opinion on that.
You're right. The degree of sheer nastiness pointed your way when you have never that I've seen offered anything more than mild snark to anyone, it is absurd.
Hell, if you responded to this saying that you have been trolling all along, I'd still be glad you were here on lemmy, doing what you're doing. If you aren't just being a normal, decent person trying to be yourself, you have sure as hell fooled me. And, to me, even if it was a troll, it amounts to the exact same thing as the reality of what you bring to the rest of us.
No bullshit, no jokes, and even with not necessarily agreeing with every stance you take, I'm glad you're here.
I hope that it's enough be a bit of a bandaid on the stress. I know I'm not the only one that likes seeing you around, though not many folks say it.
I've got a friend that's a semi-regular lurker of lemmy. We've talked about you out in the non digital world. I know he respects you a lot. He was throwing around terms like badass.
So, if you've got tears to shed, shed them with the knowledge that no matter how much hate there is towards you, it isn't everyone.