I put on my grown up pants today and called to book in for a new mental health plan and reached out to a psych for an appointment. She specialises in depression and trauma but can also do adult adhd assessments so I'm hoping she can help me unpick some things. I'm not in crisis (which I have been every other time I've sought help) so I'm feeling partly good about this and partly feeling like I am wasting everyone's time and they will think I'm bunging it on .... and that folks is why I need help unpicking some stuff !

But geez louise there's proper money required even with the rebates. faark this system - It shouldn't be a privilege to be able to seek help.

ta da, the cabinet and base is all done

spoiler

Got my open mic spot locked in for Thursday!!!!!! Fuck. Yes!

I'm so fucking pumped lol

Edit: 7:30pm Lyrebird Lounge if anyone is in that area and feels like coming along.

Got a letter from a lord mayor candidate asking me to vote for him, but the letter is almost all generated by ChatGPT. Reckon he's gonna use an AI to run the city?

Me too buddy. Me too.

Edit: I think Gibson is over the singing l she used to hang out in the studio with me before, but she walked straight out when I got started lol

Would love to stop feeling anxious about an appointment for my medications that I need. I hate that cannabis is so frowned upon, that I still hold the feeling of doing something illegal, when I need it to sleep.

This has been such a shithouse week for me, no restful sleep, just nightmares and a impending sense of doom.

Fucking ugh. Leave me alone, Brain, why can't you be kind to meeee wah wah lol

Carpet moths have also returned, so slept on the couch after soaking them in vinegar and punching the ones that tried to escape. I hate carpet. Never install carpet.

I don't have the executive function to deal with this shit

HUNGRY

Damn hormones. You'd think eating a full dinner might curb the hunger at least a little bit but no, apparently any time I'm not actively stuffing more food down my body is not happy. ☹️

Edit: There is now pudding in the oven.

I have a problem that gets me every damn time, and it’s completely my fault.

The Athenaeum Library gives you a lovely, sturdy, capacious book bag when you join them. The borrowing period is also lengthy - one month.

Every time I go, I fill this bag.

Then I have to eventually return them, and hauling the full book bag up the stairs is a pain in the bum

Ugh. Dealing with multiple different allergy people is a nuisance. Off to boil my blind baking beads.

I'm wishing and willing this headache to be a stress based one and not the premonition of a cold/flu. The last thing I need right now is that...

Having a go with Nasonex to see if it helps. God help me if I've developed hay fever this year after not having it my whole life.

Positive things for today, dropped in to a friend's place in the morning, got my MH referral and a psych appointment for Wednesday itself - glad I didn't have to wait too long at all. I just haven't got any brain cells left though. Guess I'll go to campus and do some journaling even if the papers make no sense to me. Just need to stay out of the house...

can’t see clearly from where i am but i think

sky pretty

Um, so, I burnt my thumb with concentrated white vinegar. I tried googling what to do, but I haven't been able to find an answer.

Just wondering if the wisdom of the DT has any insight?

pic of thumb, sfw

Edit: nvm. Ive just realised it's interacting with the grazes I have on my thumb from punching moths yesterday; I missed and punched the wooden bed frame. Rinsed thoroughly

Made a stinky savoury spread for lunch.

Anchovies, garlic, capers, mustard and some chilli. Mush with mortar and pestle, spread onto fried bread.

Absolutely delicious....definitely not office or society friendly though.

Melbcat is eating well again. She started refusing the fancy wet food and seemed a bit off with the probiotics so I’ve just been giving her the plain nutritionally complete homebrand with her meds mashed in.

She is loving the electric blanket in cooler weather. Comes to cuddle in the day and sleeps on it at night. If I’m half asleep and don’t lift the doona she burrows under it herself to be incubated like an egg.

One of my most unpleasant jobs is to scoop the dry dog food from the big bag to the smaller bag for convenience.

The dog's most excitable jobs is to watch me scoop the dry dog food from the big bag to the smaller bag whilst I try not to gag.

Enjoy your night everyone ❤️

Four assignments due next week. Three exams. A few quizzes. Ten weeks of lectures for one subject which will be watched in 2x speed.

Then we're done.

I don't feel like I've learnt much from my degree, except that I should be better at time management. Hoping I won't be saying that about the next course I do because that one should be the one that actually gets me a job!

Really need to get my eyes checked. Sat down to do a quick pile of mending and spent 90% of the time failing to thread a needle.

I'm umming and ahhhing about bringing someone I've been on a few dates with me. Seems incredibly douchey...

Like "look at me" sort of thing. I dunno.

Edit: yeah nah next time I reckon

Honestly tired of this shit weather. It can't just be cold and drizzly which is bad enough, we also have to content with the wind that cuts through you like an ice pick.

Glad I'm going to a tropical country in a few weeks to escape it, even if only for a brief period.

Since I complained about tv before I want to add a positive. This movie does not get enough credit. And possibly the best opening sequence of almost all time. Serenity's "Landing" sequence The music, the logo becoming the ship, the way it quickly intrudes the characters so perfectly to those who don't know them. and the quotes. My god the quotes!

Such a work of art.

First time doing later shifts this week... 1145 to 730 ☠️ next week is 1245 to 830! Back to 9am the week after that though...

I'm going to need lots of coffee

It's back to school now kids. Have a great day.

Hmm, went to a local bar last night. I used to semi-frequent it and have always had a good time.

Last night they asked to scan my ID and they took a photo of my face. I was told they only retain data until the end of the night.

Anyone have any idea what the legalities are around this?

Today I have been conducting my business while listening to various John Carpenter movie scores. It gives even the most innocuous situations a creepy vibe.

Getting out of bed at 6:30am for a potential early morning soil delivery isn't the most fun start to the week. Hope the dirt and literal shit comes soon.

Flinders platform 12 always smells like piss 🤮