I understand friend, it can be really hard to deal with trauma. While I don't know what you've been through, there are so many things people dismiss as "just life" that are traumatizing. It can be really difficult to get comfortable again after long periods of disappointments and frustrations, whether those be financial, social, romantic, whatever it is. I'm sorry you're stuck being on edge, it feels like a never ending cycle sometimes.

have you tried some physical outlet?

The thing I try to focus on when feeling this way is just making sure to keep up on the most primary needs, trying to eat and sleep better and not reading too much heavy news. It helps me too to remind myself that the nagging voice might seem true but it's just anxiety painting an image over your perception.

You said things are steadily improving the last few weeks? Look at the things that are actually measurable, are things going to shit or is it fear of things going to shit causing your agitation?

I don't know if you want/need advice or you are just trying to express your frustration somewhere, but either way I hope it gets better soon

Me too