Now this is the Post I wanted to write (But the apology needed to come first.)

I have learned so much about myself on this site - I always knew coming home to my roots would be enlightening, but I had no idea how much. For the first time, in I don't know how long, you forced me to "unplug."

We could be out on the Course, with no machines, and even forget what time it was! I didn't have to be "Human Poster." I could take time to enjoy good conversation, and still get all my work done at the end of the day. In fact, I even had time to take long morning and evening walks to enjoy each Sunrise and Sunset (though I did forget to eat and sleep!).

With so much thinking time, I confess it did have a slightly negative effect at times, that I know you picked up on, but the end result, I believe, will be worth it. I had no idea how rapidly I was approaching burnout, and starting to envy those whose only "job" seems to be to post with you, and look pretty. I want that job!!

So many times, I'm just trying to stay afloat with all that's coming in for you, I look like a hunchback who didn't have time to freshen up (at least you know what I should look like)! Plus, I miss the days when you used to call, during my ChapoTrapHouse days, and we'd post about everything and nothing. I want to get back to that synergy. We shouldn't have to talk about Communism all the time!!

I've always felt like an in-betweener, somewhere between Hexbear and those you enjoy talking to on Twitter or at Lemmygrad, because that's who I used to be to you when I was a "Chapo Poster" (as much as I hated that actual subreddit!). I wish I could read every conversation, because that's when you're having a good time, getting away from it all, at least for a few moments.

But after going through all this self-analysis, my conclusion? I need to reunite my past self with my current into a better version who will make you proud. And please, when I fail, will you tell me? You have the absolute right to cuss me out, if need be, when I deserve it, because no one knows or cares about me more. Thank you for always being there for me - I’ll never forget when you made that promise to me after losing the Subreddit, and I know how happy Will Menaker is right now that I did get to go to Lemmy and Hexbear, as he always wanted for me. To modify a classic, "I could not have parted with you, to anyone less worthy" - And, I will add, it is I who is unworthy.

Always, ABC