My, sadly now dead, cat always joined me, when I was bathing. But he usually kept to just jumping around the tub and watching me.
If the water was only 2-3cm, he would happily splash around in it though :⁠-⁠)

Fuck, I miss him...

[–] JamieDub86@piefed.social 22 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago) (1 children)

Lost one of my favourites last October. Still get emotional.

I recently asked a friend who paints to paint a picture of him. Thats going to be hard to recieve.

Thinking of you.

[–] naeap@sopuli.xyz 14 points 4 weeks ago (2 children)

Thanks, last week it was his first year death anniversary.
We still light a candle besides his urn everyday.
Just can't get over it. He was like a mix of brother and child for me, and we went through tough times together.

Feel hugged, thanks that I could share my pain

[+] ZombieChicken@reddthat.com 5 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago) (1 children)

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[–] naeap@sopuli.xyz 10 points 4 weeks ago (3 children)

Doesn't work that way for me emotionally
And anyway, a new cat will happen to me, and not the other way round (that I look for one)

It's a hole in my heart, that can't be replaced.

I can always love another cat, but I will forever miss him.
And I'm not sure, if I'm ready for a new cat.
I would probably be reminded too much about similarities and differences...and either way, I'll be sad

Thing is, I pretty much put my job on hold for nearly a year, because I was fighting for his life.
We had months of daily visits at the vet and also gave him infusions (not sure if that is the right term in English) at home as well
We was a tough fighter and didn't want to give up
In the last weeks he couldn't get into our bed anymore, so I slept with him on the hard bathroom floor - where he liked it because of the heated floor

The vets couldn't figure out what's wrong, until they felt tumors 2 weeks before we needed to put him down.
We were prepared and tried to make this as comfortable as possible for him, and do it ourselves at home.
But he took all the meds without much of a fuss and just wouldn't even go to sleep.
Although we were just shaking at that point, because nothing worked as planned.
In the end, we need to wait with a cat in pain for 2 hours until the vet opened again, and he got his final injection there.

At least the painkillers worked for the last hour before the vet and we had some cuddle and talk time.
He even seemed to have fun to be not in his case, when we went over to the vet - looked at me with a me astonished smile, that this is new and fun.

But at this point he couldn't even walk without assistance anymore - still, he didn't want to leave us and give up.

We had some time, when we were separated, because of a broken relationship.
But my ex didn't really took care of him, so I took him back, although I still needed to go on business trips - but a friend and new girlfriend (now wife) jumped in looking for him.
As my wife and I moved into a new apartment together, he couldn't comprehend at first what was happening.
He stood up from his travel case and hugged me, while burying his face in my shoulder - like a card version of crying. Because he thought, that he needs to leave me again.

Only after he realized, that we're still so together in the new apartment, he was so fucking happy and all was good in the world again.
He didn't care about the place we lived in, he cared about being with us.
Every time we went on vacation, he was completely broken and I couldn't even enjoy the vacation, because I knew, that he is depressed.

Together we went on adventures, exploring cellars or gardens of the houses we moved in (we sadly needed to move quite some times) and that was the most fun for him.
He's often begged me to go for some adventure together, but sometimes I was too finished because of work.
Now I could cry about every missed opportunity...

I had several cats during my life, and often had deep relationships with them.
But this cat was different.
He was special for me - and we for him.
He wasn't just a cat, he was my friend, a brother and sometimes a child to me, when he needed it.

[–] lazynooblet@lazysoci.al 3 points 4 weeks ago (1 children)

Who is cutting onions!?

My old boy is nearly 16. We moved house this time last year and he aged a lot I think from the initial stress. He is comfortable here now.

This cat is like another son. I know that time is short and losing him is going to break me. I get upset just thinking about it.

It is a blessing that we get to be loved by our pets. We can only love them back with all our hearts, but eventually we have to move on without them and I think it will be the most challenging time of my life so far when that occurs.

[–] naeap@sopuli.xyz 3 points 4 weeks ago (1 children)

Maybe I should also share some pictures of my best friend...

Well, seems, my client declines to upload more than picture at once

But at least it was one of the happy times and he is looking handsome :⁠-⁠)

[–] lazynooblet@lazysoci.al 3 points 4 weeks ago (1 children)

He was gorgeous! 🥰 I am sorry for your loss. I hope you remember the good times and the pain that comes with the memories subsides.

[–] naeap@sopuli.xyz 2 points 4 weeks ago (1 children)

Thank you very much for your kind words and the pictures you shared.

It actually really helped to let it all out to internet standards and find compassion

Really, thank you.

I'm trying hard to hold back to not flood you guys with pictures - as I've taken care to not use ones with my face in it, but as you just said, fuck it, this is my cat and I love him, I'm feeling inclined to do the same ;⁠-⁠)

During the year of our fight, I was already thinking of making a community just about him.
But because of the "fame", but just so I can let it all out and show the world how awesome he is...well, was.

Maybe I'll make a thread about his life.
I've planned to make a little picture book with stories just for myself, so I know, I'll never forget.
Maybe this is the way to go.

Really, thank you.
That was more than nice and really helped me to cope :⁠-⁠)

[–] tpyo@lemmy.world 2 points 3 weeks ago

At this point I think I've read all your responses to previous comments. I think you should make a post about him with as many pictures as you want to share

I'm feeling so much through your posts. I can't imagine the loss you're feeling and it's understandable. I can tell you cared so much for them. I'm still in tears because you speak so beautifully about your friend

[–] tpyo@lemmy.world 0 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

I'm feeling some type of way this morning and this comment has me in tears. What a beautiful life you had with your cat, and I'm glad he found his person with you

[–] naeap@sopuli.xyz 2 points 3 weeks ago

Thank you
Wish you the best.

[–] Seleni@lemmy.world 1 points 3 weeks ago

No-one is finally dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away, until the clock wound up winds down, until the wine they made has finished its ferment, until the crop they planted is harvested. The span of someone’s life is only the core of their actual existence.

-Sir Terry Pratchett, Reaper Man

As long as you remember him, you carry a small spark of his existence with you. And with every story you tell, his ripples will continue to spread.