Transfem

Edit: a quick peek at your post history show you lusting after a guy. This is 100% skewing your view of yourself, as this always does.

I'm sorry you feel this way, I know I have family members also struggle with their appearances. You may have heard this before, but I think it bears repeating: most people feel like this. Especially today, you are being bombarded by an impossible beauty standard. I don't know which "masc" parts you feel like you have, so I'm going to address the common ones I hear about. ‌No one has no facial hair, they all shave (desperately). No ones chest is perfect, there is always a criticism: too small or too large with no inbetween. In my intimate converstions with cis-women, I've learned that even the most stunning women are self-critical to nearly the same degree I am myself.

Here's my practical advice with not knowing which "masc" aspects you are concerned about, with a caveat that I am not a Dr and are anecdotal to what I have seen in my AFAB friends:

• Talk to your Dr about Gender Affirming Care, not HRT
• Get your natural levels checked for estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone. If your T levels are "high" you may find it easy for your dr to prescribe something to midigate it.
• Consider your birth control type, it may be causing an imbalance in your hormone levels (or if you're not taking any, you may not be getting the "boost" your family members are getting). There are two main categories: estrogen/estradiol and progesterone.
  -- Progesterone seems to cause chest development early on, one of my friends switched to and gained like 5 cup sizes in 3 months (they were NOT happy about this, as they're FtM). However, too much progesterone for too long can also cause hair development, so if you're on one already it could be contributing to that. -- Estrogen/estradiol ones are more common in the states, idk about UK medicine and I can't say much on it. The "boost" I'm referring to above is often estrogen.
• I don't know your weight, but from what I've seen, the more weight you gain the more androgenous one looks. This isn't because you look more masc, it's because the scale that is used labels anything not traditionally "femme" as masc (eg women in pants). If you're heavier than your family members, that may be a factor in how you assess your "masc"ness. Exercise, drink water for at least 3/4 of all of your liquid intake, limit processed foods.

I honestly think you're likely goals for many of us MtF and you're comparing yourself to an impossible standard.