Ask Lemmy

Real talk: have you seriously thought about a therapist? There are therapists that will do it for free or very very little money. Or you could reduce the amount you smoke, and spend that money on a therapist instead. Instead of 1-3 packs every few days and smoking whenever you think about it, only have a cigarette at most every three hours.

Also, do NOT start crack or meth. Those are not drop pits easily escaped, and starting either of those at all have dire, insidious, very real consequences. Take back power over your life in a more constructive way, like drinking orange juice and brushing your teeth and not smoking. Regain that frontal lobe control clarity that's in there by getting your shit together. Take real steps that you've gotta do. Make changes, no matter how small or large. You can do it, nothing is written in stone and you have so much more power over your life and surroundings than you currently know. Take a deep breath, look deep down inside your heart and soul, and see the happy healthy future you that you know you are, and forcibly make that your reality. Fucking do it and don't take pain as an answer. It's never too late to stop, let it all slide off, realize this is not what you want, and take yourself in a totally different direction. You just gotta stand up and move your feet. And even if you don't do it right now, know that you have, and will always have this power over yourself. Change is inevitable and the only constant of the universe.