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My best tool in coping with grief, as a neurodivergent that has had a lifetime of difficulty in dealing with/understanding loss- has been in the acceptance that I was never going to avoid this.
What I mean is, this was something that was going to happen eventually. You cannot outrun it, you cannot “health” your way around it. It WILL happen. And accepting this helps to resolve the constant “what could I have done differently” part.
What does this have to do with nightmares? I’m getting to that.
Basically, Grief comes in two flavors;
There’s the “selfish” part, which is the idea that YOU won’t ever get to be with them again- and how it hurts that YOU will now forever have a massive hole in YOUR life that get once filled, that they will never have any new interactions with YOU
And then there’s the “selfless” part, which is sadness and empathy for THEIR pain, and the worry that THEY were suffering, that THEY will never have any new reactions with you.
When these two things mix together- from my experience, the selfish one is always the loudest. It’s the one that drives the knives into my heat.
… and it’s the one that brings the nightmares.
Once you come to terms with the fact that this was something that was always going to happen, it gets easier to work through the pain and come to a place of peace. Just know that the love you had for her remains untouched and timeless.
The nightmares will eventually cease, and her all of your memories of her will bring warmth and comfort.
Just hang in there and try and be good to yourself through this.
❤️