memes

We never pulled the "could've gone pro" stuff but we were in an athletic program that put way too much pressure on us. And we were also a "former gifted student" who was just unmedicated AuDHD with special interests that aligned well with certain school subjects. It's really sad thinking about it, we used to love learning because we did it for fun. We used to love sport and being active for the same reason. We're still trying to rediscover that joy to this day. We had nightmares about showing up to a fitness test "too fat" for the better part of a decade after we stopped competing. We are still averse to reading for or learning if there's even the slightest bit of pressure attached to it. We want to go back and undo these things so badly