Seriously, I wanna go 
every time I read some carrer growth opportunity bullshit. It's either a job or it isn't.
I really despise anything remotely related to linkedin or whatever kind of creature dwells in that place. Can everyone do this stuff? Like, is this really how everyone gets a job? I can't deal with all this pretending, everything requires having a linkedin profile, but not only that, you gotta sell yourself somehow. And I don't even use social media.
Well, I have a bachelor's degree from a good University, I'm good at what I do, here's a portfolio. But no, I have to prove I deserve to be selected as a producer of wealth for my potential boss by pretending to be someone else. Can't we all just be practical about this shit? I have to keep trying to put myself into boxes and trying to fit with a sort of profile that I just can't and don't know why.
Am I autistic? Like, do I go get a diagnosis and maybe that will help? Do I go do something on my own? Then I have to figure out what an then sell it, and I'm bad at that. I don't know what to do and I'm tired of trying. (I was almost crying while writing this paragraph).
Honestly though, I just wanted to rant and this is one of the few places I feel safer in. Thanks for reading my 
rambling
The amount of jobs I've interviewed for, only to be rejected but then offered that exact same job but as unpaid "work experience" confounds me.
"Yes we want you to work here, but we don't want to pay you to work here."
Also is it me, or is there a huge uptick in companies looking for scientists to produce model data that they can train AIs on?