Started seeing a counsellor to help me process stuff. Feels more productive than calling Samaritans again, but it's good they are there, v grateful. Being genderfluid is tiring because one moment I know what I want, clear as day, the next I don't feel it.

Haha, yes quite.

Extracts from 2nd link that stood out to me

most evidence to date reveals a much larger contribution of sex-related hormones compared to sex-related genes to the sexual differentiation of the rodent brain and behavior

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studies revealed that feminization and masculinization are independent processes rather than two poles of a continuum

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And adding to the first link:

[brains whose features align clearly at either male or female end are] low (0% to 8%) and much lower than the number of mosaic brains (23% to 53%), that is, brains in which at least one feature was at the “femaleend” zone and one feature was at the “male-end” zone...

analyses [of MRIs of more than 1,400 human brains from four datasets] of internal consistency reveal that brains with features that are consistently at one end of the "maleness-femaleness" continuum are rare.

Love this statement.💜

Yes of course it is. But thanks for the links, will read.

I'm not presenting anything absolute or probably new. Just a personal take on a correlation between where my gender is and how strongly I feel it, at the different points of my fluidity.

Yup! I considered drawing a locus but decided that a line said enough.

It's been a useful realisation for me that while my gender fluctuates, I feel it less when I'm feeling towards the male side.