weather is very hot (80 degrees) so idk Abt the shirt layering.
musicenjoyer
joined 1 month ago
bloom: in a t4t relationship. i feel amazing , she makes me so happy 
doom TW dysphoria
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i hate how I look, not even a big shirt hides everything. want to go on t but it's 30 $ from RxAisle. There's no reason to wait but I'm so scared.
fucking hate libs. ''peaceful protesting'' is fine but the moment violence is used, that's too far. ICE deports people FFS. 
i wrote more lyrics 
idk what to wear most of the time but also don't like what I have. 
rant >
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Going anywhere other than this site online is a mistake. i previously had a Tumblr account but deleted it , then created one yesterday , searching things on Tumblr is aggravating. ppl conflate being pro-palestine w being anti-Semitic. so I delete the app. i tried to use the app only for writing requests but it's just too much for me.
CW : disordered eating, mention of death
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fuck the nhs. i found a website dedicated to someone who died of ed complications. This person had a history of anorexia, was dying and neither 2 orgs that were supposed to help them did anything. ghoul shit.
yap ↓
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i don't know what language to learn, I used to be interested in learning Indonesian but lost interest. i want to learn a language but getting anything done is frustrating . same with writing song lyrics/poems. i wrote something week ago but can't think of anything
spoiler cw dysphoria and si/depression
feel trapped. honestly considering dropping my therapist since everytime I vent to her about sensory overload or transphobia, she tells me to get over it. idk whats the purpose of therapy if it's just her shaming me for not 'controlling my emotions'. i have doubts about me 'getting better'. have thoughts about screaming and beating people up. aggravating that no one listens to me , even mh professionals. am glad I stopped menstruating but paranoid about bleeding again.
EZLN doc : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQaJYlgKp_A