Authoritarian leftists and marxist lenninists are not leftists.
Never were. Never will be.
Belief that someone relinquishes power after seizing it is just childish, at best. Borderline moronic given the historic evidence.
If you like authoritarian assholes in power, one that purges the ranks, seizes power and gets control of the eeconomy. All for the good of people. That is Fascism. Capital F. Get. Fucking. Real.
You can go point by point comparing russia and nazi germany. All they have to say is well it can apply to any western country as well.
This is all vibe based ideology. Like MAGA, fascism and nazism was.
Therapy and meds. At some point you need both. One to change chemistry in the brain (meds) to properly rewire your brain (therapy).
High stress mixed with some thought loops is doing exactly the same. It changes chemistry from baseline and rewires your brain. Often for worse.
Regarding #3. Consider this. You break your hand. Would you be questioning yourself over using the other hand for daily tasks? You break your foot. "I should be walking faster" is doing what good in that moment?
Dont care