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[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I confuzzled because it’s pretty commonly taken for PCOS (which I may or not not have) so I don’t see the big deal. ..

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 2 points 2 months ago

:( now I’m curious

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago

It had Lot to do with my inability to express my needs and concerns effectively. I DO look masc. i won’t go into detail but I do.

I’m sure she was reluctant about it because it’s a bit of a taboo and it’s quite unheard of for cis women under 40-50 to be prescribed hrt. She did say that if I wanted to check my hormones it would have to be done virtually every day for a matter of months or something like that (from fluctuations due to the cycle). So she sounded as though it wasn’t really a thing (?).

Annnd, I’ve also been checking out cis women or AFAB s experience taking what I’ve got so I’ve got a mix of information.

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I can’t see how it will make a difference. Maybe I’m being lazy about it but I just don’t see the point.

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago (2 children)

Well I did ask for a hormonal blood test and basically got denied. I did have blood taken though (the gp didn’t fully disclose what for annoyingly) and I got the result last week for low vitamin D. That was it.

I don’t really care to get another blood test at this point. It is what it is…can’t see myself going private either.

And tbh, after doing loads of drugs in my younger days, I feel pretty OK just taking this stuff and seeing how it goes. I’m not that bothered. I made the effort to ask for a hormonal blood test and that failed so whatever basically.

But I appreciate your concern.

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago (7 children)

Isn’t that what everyone on here’s doing?

And my doctor - when I went in asking for a hormonal blood test - gave me a blood test but didn’t tell me exactly what was being tested and I only got told to take vitamin D. That’s what the result was.

I don’t see myself going and asking for another blood test regarding this only to get turned down again. I feel pretty alright just taking what I’ve got and going with it.

About intersex, I meant even if I have it it doesn’t make much difference to what I’m doing, how I feel, my plans to change.

 

About an hour ago I took two pumps of gynokadin dosergiel estradiol (approx 1.5mg I believe?). Will take 1 tablet (100mg) of Spironolactone tomorrow 🙏

Kinda feeling something already but it’s probably just placebo.

[yes, i am a cis woman but I feel (and look😓) like a man basically. I’m 23. Been to the gp and apparentlyyyy I’m only deficient in Vitamin D but Idek what they actually tested me for 🤷‍♀️ (besides that). I was basically told “NO”! to hrt. So since my life and health is awful, I decided to do a little research and got it myself. I am about to ovulate within the next week ish so I probably won’t take that much but we shall see how it goes!] Any advice welcome 🦋

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago

I didn’t think you were talking about you as a partner for me at all lol. So funny how you had to clarify that twice.

And I get all, but my position still stands. But reading the post again, I guess my initial comment doesn’t really have much to do with it. In the back of my mind I’ll be feeling not-so-special. Best if I stay single until I work on that insecurity properly.

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club -1 points 2 months ago (4 children)

Yhhhh but it’s sorta the same. Like, how many other girls have you used that on? What were their reactions? It just makes me think like that but I have issues…

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 2 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Damn sounds scary. I hope I don’t get that whatever it is.

Any tips on how to avoid that?

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club -1 points 2 months ago (6 children)

I don’t like that though, being on the receiving end. Thinking about how you’ve done this with other girls. Not a good feeling…

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 1 points 2 months ago

Yh. It’s fairly accessible but I’m not in a place of wanting to do it.

[–] hayyy@thelemmy.club 2 points 2 months ago (7 children)

What’s dilaudid and why were you in hospital?

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by hayyy@thelemmy.club to c/nostupidquestions@lemmy.world
 

I’m feeling pretty emotional and crap rn. I spent a stupid amount of money among other things… I feel disgusting and ugly.

(Please delete if not allowed)

 

Rn. And sad. I ate the pork :/ i feel weird and shit. I had about 1300 calories. I have a bunch of perishables now…

Why do I always do this? :(. I was feeling good and now that progress is ruined. I want to feel like I can be out in the summer time and not like I need to hide all the time. I want to feel good about my body not like a disgusting freak. I don’t want to keep waiting til next summer next summer one summer. I know I can do this even though it’s hard.

I’ve been lying in my bed this whole time just keeping myself occupied with my phone. I have been feeling like I’ve been going into ketosis and it felt pretty f-ing good. I hate waking up everyday feeling disgusted with myself and ashamed like I have to hide from my own family because I’m so bad.

Fasting feels empathic. The longer I can maintain a fast, the more connected to others and the world I feel and have capacity to be.

I need to stop just going on my phone. I have been resting more.

I’d give the money I have to my family members to look after so I don’t impulse buy but I have in the past and it just doesn’t seem like the best option. I neeed to build proper trust with myself. I feel sooo stupid that I bought all this crap and my sister has seen it. I don’t even want any of it. I just add stupid shit to the cart to handle cravings and now it’s here… I feel weighed down and trapped by it.

I really don’t want to f up another summer.

This consumes my whole life and energy :(

 

Serious replies only pls

Edit: wow clearly people hate this post

 

One day I’ll be good enough for him. One day he’ll approve of me.

 

I’m about to take some myself in the next couple of weeks and would like to know the changes you’ve experienced upon taking them, what type you take, how long for, when you noticed a difference and what… etc

I have seen people’s posts but want to hear first hand if possible to really get an idea.

Thank you!

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Cinderella (thelemmy.club)
 

Cinderella is about a girl so alone she turned to drugs, she took the mdma she found from her sisters bag one day and suddenly felt happy got the first time.

She got all dressed up and had the best night of her life, even caught the eye of a wealthy prince. But things changed…

Before long, her reality started coming back to her. She didn’t feel so pretty or free anymore…

Fairy godmother’s don’t exist 🧚 🎃 🐎

 

Edit. It’s 2am. Just placed an order finally! Let’s see if it comes and works …

Gendergp is too expensive And I’m feeling desperate and impatient

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