Anytime, friend, and thank you for understanding as well. I can't properly reply bc otherwise I'll probably start crying 
And I know you can work through your brain worms just as much as I can, and have to. We're on a good track, knowing what we have to change about ourselves, and I do feel encouraged, knowing I'm not the only one trying to be kinder to myself, others, and still learning so much about everything.
We are, comrade, we are
I think I'm gonna re-watch some of the original Star Trek series. Out of curiosity, what games are you playing?
I think I know what to put on my wishlist for my birthday 
Happy educationally radical reading comrade!
We're the same person in different time lines.
Thank you comrade, I appreciate you and your words
I can only try to imagine how furious you must have been. At the same time, it's so easy to laugh about parents/people of that age group, because of what you said, that a lot of self-control goes into not ridiculing them for their archaic beliefs.
Judging by your phrasing I'm gonna assume you managed to get a job eventually, and I am happy you got out of that seemingly inescapable pit. Let's just say, should we ever get in a position similar to that of your parent, I know both of us will be wise enough not to talk down to the next generation.
Thank you, it means a lot to hear that, and I've seen it happen with other friends too. I've always been something of a "therapy friend" to most people, but really, out of my own free will, so still people tell me how they're doing and if I have any advice. Thus it makes it so relieving when someone, upon reading/hearing what I'm going through, just says "I'm with you, you're not alone". It means the world to me, and I'm grateful for it.
Concerning your rant
I think you have every right to talk about this, in this thread as well, and I wish I could do more than express my sympathies, like you have done for me. Stay strong, I believe there are better times ahead for both you and me, as well.
What I can tell you, tho, is that every single person I've ever heard say they thought they were "too annoyingly high energy, too needy" are never the ones who should be saying that. The people who are really needy don't acknowledge that, just as much as those who are actually too high energy (and if you can be too high energy is something I find debatable as well). I firmly believe you should never try to represent as something stereotypically assigned to a gender. Rather, try to represent yourself as you feel comfortable, be yourself, and the person(s) who are actually interested in you will cross your way. This counts for both friends and potential romantic partners. I hope this helps, at least a little bit.
On behalf of all of us who get mistreated by their families for shitty jobs, I will mentally punch them for you so you don't have to. 
Kidding aside, I hope you can, at some point, at least find a job that makes you feel good about what you're doing, and never have to concern yourself with these people's demeaning treatments again. We're stronger than this!
Yes, exactly, it's just hilarious how many older people, not just boomers, believe this shit. None of the jobs I have applied for since graduation are jobs that I actually want, but I've managed to write some of the most stellar letters of application I've ever thought possible, so it's not like I'm not learning how to lie in my niche of corporate language. But just knowing how to say the right things doesn't get you a job. It never has. And if you don't have anyone "influential" to back you up, your labor amounts to nothing. And then you get shamed for it, as if you didn't put fucking effort into doing something that is mandatory but its outcome is arbitrary. God I wanna puke.
Omg how cool! I'll have a longer look at the unity engine later, and while I don't understand much of these engines, learning never hurt. Enjoy yourself!