alina

I asked a question on a forum about why a command wasn't working. They said I didn't have an interpreter installed on my computer and were making fun of me. I showed them that I had one installed and that wasn't the problem, but they continued to talk sarcastically to me without explaining anything. Only one of them suggested the cause of the problem, and he was right, so I thanked him. Then another guy said that if I couldn't figure it out myself, I should do something else and that he was tired of people like me. After that, I deleted my question, and now I'm not sure. And I don't think I want to ask for help ever again

I'm not sure I'll ever be able to, although I don't even dream of prosperous countries, i don't care about quality of life, I'd be happy to live as shitty or even worse than I do now, just to feel free and protected and have nothing to do with a regime that kills people and the people who support it. But I'm sure that if I did so, I would feel disgust and self-loathing , since it would be an escape from the consequences of my own weakness and inaction, even if there are no direct consequences other than living in this decaying hole. And I think any russian honest with themselves is of the same opinion. Their whining like "It's not my fault I was born in russia" when people from other countries rightly declare that they don't want them there is irritating and disgusting, and I don't know how anyone has the patience to deal with them. I don't know how fair my reasoning is, and whether it's simply due to my apathy or envy, although I think I've basically come to terms with my situation and don't have any big plans for my shitty little life. I'd like to hear someone else's point of view on this without pity or emotion.

I cried a few hours ago and my head and eyes still hurt, my hands are shaking a little, and I also feel dizzy..This doesn't usually happen, аnd now I'm worried (I just very like to cry)

I'm 23 years old, but I look 14. I always looked younger than my age, even when I was in school. I'm 167 cm, which is the standard female height where I live, so I guess it's my face, something with the shape of the bones, I dont know. I am sincerely convinced that this is the main reason why men have never approached me. I'm also quite socially awkward and not very pretty, but that's usually not a problem for other girls, so I think it all comes down to my child-like features. I've never seen men look at me with desire, or that they've ever been shy when talking to me. I feel completely desexualized and lonely and I suffer so much because of it. This problem sounds so stupid and absurd, but that's what I'm dealing with... At the very least, it's probably worth being glad that men aren't so attracted to childish features in reality...

Sorry if this post is too messy, I don't feel well while I'm writing this.