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Ooh that's a nice one. And another in the J related names category. Thanks!

Fake it. Smile and wave when people reveal their politics or weird shit (that we all have) that doesn't vibe with you. Keep it shallow and surface level, like talk about music and movies and shit. Indulge in conversations about this restaurant or that brand of tea or some shit but never show them who you really are. And they won't even notice that they don't really know you and it's all good being an alien. Maybe everyone does this on some level.

And I'm protecting insanely here in case you couldn't tell (but that's because I relate) but instead of saying "go to therapy", I'm gonna say do yourself a favour and spend some time lurking in some mental health related communities / spaces and see if you relate to any of the things that people say there. And how much of it you relate to. And look up "autistic burnout" too.

As I say (just making double clear), I'm giving you this advice based on my own life so far. So maybe your story is different. But I related a lot to a lot of what you said here.

Based on a couple of arguments I've now had, they actually sound a lot like manosphere, anti woke people. Just a bit more intelligent and well read. But even the "trans ideology" phrase that they like to use is just their version of "woke agenda".

I think that it is a sect of feminism that has been created and seeded by the same right wing christian nationalist types that are also behind the manosphere and MAGA. The Peter Thiel and Elon Musk types. They realised in the '90s that calling everything "satanic" wasn't working, so they started coming up with new terminology to pull people in.

First it was "SJWs", then "woke" but it all attracts the same kind of people. And "trans ideology" was the term they came up with for women that read and aren't completely dense. So they're all behaving like reborn christians and going around stomping out anything the norm. But they also sincerely believe they're right.

But honestly, based on the conversations I've had so far, all alt right people have the same talking points, which TERFs definitely are a part of. They're just, as I say, not as clearly dumb as other alt right types.

Honestly not much to say about this episode. The play was fun, mostly a summary of what we already knew though. No Lois episode yet but I'm sure it's coming.

Although, holy shit, Frank! I bet Ivy is gonna grow another Frank some time. And also, serial killer Brainiac was something I didn't see coming. What an interesting take on this guy.

Edit: and regarding the play, for Clayface and Bane's sakes, I'm glad the audience seemed to really love it. Kind of a rare win for them. Although actually Bane is winning already with his family.

Oh haha, my bad. I had a feeling it could be a reference to something but wasn't sure. That looks really cool and I need to watch it.

Well from what I've learnt now (the wheels are in motion and this is going to be government not private), I have to actually see a regular doctor in the hospital first, then they refer me to whoever it is that I actually need to see. So it sounds like I'll be on the road to seeing a specialist and having more answers soon!

breadth-first algorithm

Reading that, especially the video game example In that article, it sounds like I might have the same way of thinking. I definitely explore that way in video games and even open world games can be a problem just for time because I leave no stone unturned before moving on to the next area. If I think about it, that might be how I gather information in other areas too, and spend a lot of time exploring areas that I don't really need just got the sake of knowing lol.

When I did a first year of psychology another life ago, I come across a concept that's kind of a warning to psychologists about self diagnosis. And that it is very easy to relate to little bits and pieces of information and trick yourself into thinking that all of the information applies to you. So I've stayed away from literature so far and instead lurked in neurodivergent spaces for the last couple of years. And the amount of relating to people telling their stories that I do makes me pretty sure that I'm on the right track.

I've actually been on Facebook a little bit for the last few days, and following a few autistic / adhd people there has been even more enlightening for me. I think I'm going to just go with taking personal notes. Because from everything I see, I just need to be myself and honest for this diagnosis some time in the future.

Hadn't thought of looking for a verbal match. Great idea for a place for me to look for ideas. Both Jean or Gene could even work actually. I'll be using it in text form but the rules can be bent. I also do like Alex, which someone else here also suggested. Thanks for the ideas.

Hmmm I think I might like Alex, actually. I've always liked it for a women's name in particular personally, although it's very definitely neutral. Suits what I'm trying for in a lot of ways and I like the name. I think I'm gonna add that to my shortlist. Thanks.

I like as a surname maybe. Or you might be on to something with looking at other languages, I'll maybe see what I could find. Could be misleading for my intended purposes right now though.

That's what people called my mother my whole life lmao. Interesting that it's used as basic gender neutral name, seems more like a shortened version of two possible names to me. Which is kinda like Jay as well. And yeah, not gonna use that personally lol.

I'm capable of doing homework, just usually the wrong types. Like spending weeks or months making lists of every last bit of Sonic the Hedgehog (or whatever my current fixation is) content, and all the variations, along with dates, in order of release, including shit like amusement park rides that I'll never emulate or play the soundtrack of. Until I burn myself out eventually and bed rot for a while in between whatever the next obsession is.