Nangijala

Good! I spent at least a year with my evenings going to brain dead mobile games. That was all I could do for awhile ad looking back, I'm not sad about it. I hope you give yourself all the grace in the world if for the next months or years (how ever long the whole period lasts) and just accept that you need to play Silksong or whatever other game tickles your fancy when your tired after a long day. It's okay to not be super duper productive all the time! It's a lesson I'm learning slowly too. Hugs!

This is a period of time in your life where you just don't have any more time to pour into hobbies and community etc. That is okay. You are only human. I just had two years where I was stressed out of my fucking mind and couldn't do anything when I got home everyday. I didn't have energy for hobbies, interests, friendships, nothing. It's slowly come back to me this year, especially over the summer and I'm gradually filling up my life with past time activities now.

You are not weird or wrong or less than for not having the energy to be active all the time. School is intense. It just is. When you're also working and planning a wedding on top of that, no shit you're exhausted, my friend. I do hope you allow yourself to have moments in the evening where you're just relaxing and doing nothing. That stuff kinda helped me when I was stressed. It was frustrating when you're someone who wants to do things all the time, but for me it was necessary to avoid imploding. I think it would be good for you too to allow your head a break when you're done with the day and not harass yourself with all the things you could be doing but aren't. You're allowed to do nothing after a long day where you have given it your all.

Remember that all of this is temporary. The wedding will pass, you'll graduate eventually as well and maybe then you will slowly experience that you have a bit more energy for all the fun things in life.

Hugs! I wish you all the best! 🤗

Fleet foxes. You should check out their album called Shore. They made it during covid and it is one of the chillest and most wholesome albums to come out of lockdown. Can I Believe You is my personal favourite song on that album.

Me when I'm alone with my thoughts

I was like you when I was still playing video games. All the Arkham games and some of the early Assassins Creed games were my obsessions. Prince of Persia and Uncharted too. A few zombie games. Mario too.

However, I haven't played video games since 2015 for several reasons:

1. I disagreed with the direction of games back in 2015 when I noticed they were becoming more and more online focused and predatory toward players in terms of microtransactions and stuff like that. I felt that if I was supposed to get to play the games I wanted to play, it would eventually cost me so much money to upgrade entertainment systems and computers and I would not get to keep any of my games because everything was digital and could be taken from me at any point. I learned my lesson early on Facebook of all places with the death of Restaurant City (RIP my beauty).

2. it was too time consuming and I wanted to spend my time developing skills instead of playing video games.

3. my fucking temper, bro. This is the main reason I don't play video games anymore. I didn't like how infuriated I would get when I kept losing in a game. I have a temper. I really have a temper, but when it comes to video games and certain electronics, I would just become a Demon when shit didn't go my way. And I didn't want to feed that beast so I just stopped.

The only game I bought and paid for post 2015 was What Remains of Edith Finch. Played it once. Loved it. Watched a bunch of videos about the game, theories and so on and then I moved on.

Now I have my best friend who is a gamer, who plays video games on Twitch once a week so we can hang out and talk about our lives. It's cool.

Ps: not officially diagnosed. Just have a lot of symptoms to the point where it's a walk like a duck and quack like a duck scenario. So yeah, not officially one of you, but I can relate A LOT to things I read from and about ADHDers.

It's effective outrage marketing. I didn't know about this company until people began sharing their Billboards around. It's not the first time I have seen these either.

There's an article/blog post on their website where they share their process behind the campaign and how and why they did what they did. It's very interesting from a marketing perspective, even if I personally think outrage marketing is in bad taste.

Link to article/blog post

It's ironic in the sense that they consider themselves to be of superior intellect and are very stubborn in that world view. Text probably doesn't communicate sarcasm super well, but that was what I was aiming for.

Also, I agree with you hehe.

It's funny, because someone claimed the character designs looked good in concept and I looked it up so see if they looked better in concept, but no. Sure they are technically well drawn, but their designs still look like shit in my opinion. I don't get a sense of character at all.

On the other hand, I came across an artist named Kevin Trentin, who had decided to have fun redesigning the characters and they look so much better the way he did them.

He even bothered to give the characters some much needed personality. Amazing.

Man, you dad must have messed up for his own kid to feel this way. O.O I hope you have other people in your life that can give you the stability and love your father couldn't.

I'll take your word for it when it comes to people woth moderate success. I don't really know any myself. Knew a guy once who inherited a lot of money and he became very smug too. Also burned through most of it in no time. Mostly on stupid shit he didn't need. I think I asked him once if he had plans to invest any of it to secure his future and he just ignored me and decided to show the electric eraser he had bought 🤣 at least he wasn't anti-vax, but he did start babbling about the Jewish question at one point and called me small minded for telling him he was on his way down the far right pipeline.

Having anti-vax family members who are doing well financially must be next level annoying, though.

I think it's simpler than that. Covid happened. Some people don't like being told what to do or to feel powerless against an abstraction, so they start to make "sense" out of a situation that is too hard for them to accept.

There definitely were climate deniers way before covid, but I do think that covid set in motion a trend of contrarianism and apathy that we will have to live woth and gradually overcome for a long time. The fact that our governments and scientists did such a fantastic job at protecting us the world over has allowed these people to live in their fantasy, that covid was a hoax. I have heard all manner of reasons for why they did what they did. Big pharma wanting to get rich, lobbying for that power. Governments wanting to prime us all for fascist regimes and keeping all the power permanently. Forcing us to take the vaccine to control us and poison us. On and on and on the reasons pile on and I know for a fact that if the governments and scientists had done nothing to stop the spread and the death toll being higher than it was, these same people would have found a way to make conspiracies about governments wanting us all to die.

Some vulnerable people cannot handle adversity and will find excuses to deny the reality of their situation because it gives them a false sense of security. And once that ball starts rolling, it's so easy to branch out to more things.