King_Simp

I notice this with people talking about capitalism, obviously, but honestly what drove me to make this post is the attempted arguments against veganism. They're basically 95% unoriginal and fail under the most basic of scrutiny.

Take, for example, "not eating the meat won't bring the cow back." Under basically any logical scrutiny, this is a clear double standard to any other purchasing decision in capitalist society, and doesn't really make any sense. But I've seen in so many times over the years, so much so that im planning on becoming a vegan over a period of time. Not because of any arguments vegans make, but because somehow pro-meat eaters are losing a debate to a brick wall, and the conclusions I've made myself have convinced myself that I should be vegan. And I'm really starting to ask, do people just...like...ctrl+c ctrl+v arguments in their head?

I...try to be nice. But...how little respect to your own ability do you have if you do that? Not only to justify something you really don't have to, but something you obviously dont care about. I mean...sorry, it's just baffling to me.

In the words of Kim Kitsuragi from disco elysium, "I dont understand officer...please, help me understand"

Preface: I'm saying this as a first world prole, so I understand I'm not immune to this as well. I might spend $40 on an old book i want, which that $40 could be someone's monthly wage somewhere else. However, I do want to talk about this to someone who'll understand.

I like my streamers. Well, I like watching their YouTube videos anyway, and I was Watching DougDoug's charity event he held last year for the monterrey bay aquarium. There was one bit where another streamer (ludwig) gets into a bidding war with a viewer over essentially a backstage pass to the actual process of taking care of some of the sea creatures there. He spent $20000+ on it.

It wasn't necessarily just an absent minded purchase, he did make a big deal of it, but it wasn't something he was genuinely freaking out about. He essentially spent $20000 on a bit. [He was also donating to charity, but in comparison, I wouldnt spend probably over $2000 on charity over a year, if I was doing financially well].

So after this I Sat there and was just...jealous. Not of his lifestyle or his success or his business or whatever. But simply of his carefree nature about it. That spending $20000 on basically a joke was a "haha funni" moment and not a "What the fuck am I going to eat and where am I going to live" moment.

I also recently went on a Dr.Mike binge because I was sick (which honestly I feel like shit about because I already don't like him), and there was one video where he casually mentioned he has a bunch if super cars? Like what? I know those cars suck in terms of actual utility for normal people, but if I had one of those I wouldn't shut up to anyone. Those are the things I oggle at when I see them drive by, even if they're obviously rental cars.

Then I was Watching a yt shorts (I know I need to get off of those, but hey it's better than smoking so ill pick my battles) guy, who is a lawyer. And he was talking about this embarrassing bit where his elevator broke, and he needed the fire department had to come help, and when they entered all they found was a cigar dispenser [a "humidor." I didn't even know that was a thing]

I was obviously very confused. Isn't smoking outlawed in commercial buildings? How does he even regulate that who uses that? Wouldn't it be more convenient to have it in your office, if you're allowed to smoke for some reason?

Annndddd then it hit me. He has an elevator inside of his home. Like...what? I hadn't even considered the idea. Even the largest of mansions I had pictured didn't have elevators in them. And he just...has that?

None of this inspires me to want to be like these people. Ludwig I just generally don't like, and didn't really do well in trying to do anything besides streaming (as he admits, and i don't even know how much of that is just luck), Dr.Mike definitely doesn't have supercars because he's a doctor, and the last guy is a Bourgeois civil lawyer (I feel like I don't have to explain this one). All of these people got lucky in some way or another. So all I'm left with is a profound sense of jealousy.

I'm just sitting there imagining what $20000 would do for me, or how much less stressed I would be if I had the same money as all of these people. I don't need in house elevators or super cars or whatever, I just want a decent home, a lot of books, and a good computer. And these people just talk about it like they didn't hit the lottery of life, that they get to love comfortably, way more comfortably than 99% of people. And I know this is kinda moralizing, I know, I try to stay away from it. But it just builds up inside of me and overwhelms me.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Han_Suyin

A few months ago i made a couple posts talking about how I was basically constantly afraid of dying. Firstly, thanks for the good responses to those. But secondly, at the time I didn't know there was a phobia of death.

I'm going to talk to a therapist [at some point] and ask if I may have this, along with agoraphobia. I get fearing death is obviously normal, but considering i wake up every morning and think "oh my god I'm not dead" and then spend a few minutes being depressed about the inevitability of death before taking a shower [which i havent heard of people doing before tbh], I wouldn't be surprised if I did.

[Caution, leftist infighting/snide remarks below]

I need to watch happier things...

Anyway, I've been on a horror kick recently and found a video talking about the production of Twilight Zone the movie, 1983.

In one scene, the main protagonist, played by Vic Morro, saves two vietnamese children from a village that is under fire from an American Huey helicopter. To give a timeline

Director John LA district concieves the scene

he hired two children, Myca Dinh Le and Renee Shin-Yi Chen, under the table, lying to safety crew and even the parents of said children. He doesn't tell safety crew that there'll be children on set, and says to the parents that "there'll just be some loud noises"

upon constructing the set, there are some test runs done. During one run the helicopter pilot complains that the pyrotechnics are too big and risk damaging the helicopter. Landis doesn't change anything

During the filming of the scene, the pyrotechnics are of course way too much. After wading through much of the river, Vic drops Renee. Before he can recover, one of the pyrotechnics launches debris into the helicopters tail rotor and comes crashing down. CW:

spoiler

Vic and Myca were decapitated by the helicopter blades, while Renee was crushed by the body of the helicopter. Myca's head was later found, and was intially assumed to be a prop until people realized they found a child's decapitated head.

Oh also the parents were on set

Landis goes to Vic's, Renee's and Myca's funeral uninvited. At Vic's funeral he gives a speech saying that it was a "tragic and unavoidable accident"

in court people testify that Landis demanded the helicopter descend further, closer to the action. Of course the aforementioned safety violations were also brought up

Landis is aquitted, and while he does pay some damages in civil suits, goes on to have a successful career. He gifted the jury that acquitted him tickets to his next film

1.Im not a big justice guy. I care if people are fed and clothed. If the Romanovs fucked off to America or something, eh, at least the peasants of russia are getting peace land and bread.

2.I know theres obviously bigger examples. The nazis who got away, a certain terror government rhyming with isn't real, the Atomic terror bombings of hiroshima and nagasaki that I talked about in my last post.

But fuck man. Really? This is such a clear case. Two children died because some rich guy wanted an action scene for some reason. And then he gets to barge into a funeral, say "oops, who could've seen that coming" and then go on to make more crappy movies to get rich off of

Oh and his son would go on to sexually abuse multiple women. Just in case you thought this paragraph would be any good news.

I'm gonna go watch a studio ghibli film or something I'm too depressed for this rn

If you want the descriptions of what it was like just after the Atomic bombings in Hiroshima, the source I read got their excerpts from "To hell and back: last train to Hiroshima." [I think it's factually fine. The original book got retracted but I haven't seen anyone object to the second printing, and most of the issues related to the stories of the Enola Gay or the science and not the stories of victims].

As I was reading these horror stories, there was something in my mind that kept just weeping. This was a terrorist attack. Not just against the Japanese but against the whole world. Hundreds of thousands of people died, either instantly vaporized or agononizingly slowly over the course of hours to years. Elderly, women, children, disabled, and even Korean victims of Japanese slavery. All of that was done so the US could intimidate the world [more specifically, the USSR]. It wasn't an unfortunate sacrifice, it wasnt a mistake. It was an act of pure and unfettered terrorism, that gets justified in schools and propaganda outlets.

And they wanted to do it again. Douglas MacArthur wanted to drop 50 along the Korean-chinese border, Eisenhower (or people in the government associated with him at least) essentially threatened the chinese with the same thing. The soviets were threatened on a scale of thousands of hiroshimas before the Cuban missile crisis.

The way I felt when I was reading the accounts of these attacks was the same way I felt when reading about the Nanjing massacre. Almost incomprehensible horrors.

I get not a lot of people will disagree with me here but I just had to get it out because fuck I'm depressed

Edit:I forgot to add. I know this wasn't the worst crime during the war. I don't feel like ranking crimes against humanity but the crimes committed during the Holocaust and the Japanese war of aggression in China were obviously worse. I just wanted to say that because occasionally I get accused of being one of those "Japan [as a whole] is a victim" people

I've been looking around for economic simulator games recently and tbh there isn't much. But it made me think about what i actually wanted out of a game like that, and honestly...

I'd absolutely love a game set in the Japanese finance ministry during the economic boom and subsequent bubble and economic crisis.

1.I like things on a more macro scale, rather than micro. So games like cities skylines and Workers and Resources: Soviet Republic are good, but still leave me itching

2. I hate that a lot of "economic" games are just business Sims. Obviously gaming in english is a bit of an American and eurocentric thing, and these places aren't famous for loving planned economies or having interesting economic ministries

3.The time period is interesting enough for a game like this. There's political and economic conflict, elections, and plenty of economic stuff to make spreadsheet nerd like me enjoy it.

4.Of course this era and area aren't exactly represented well so id love to see a game made set in it. (I'd make it myself but A.No time and B.Im not a programmer tbh)

Alternatively, I really wish there was a macro economic game set in the USSR, China, or some other socialist country. Actually, we'll, planning an economy without spending years in education, getting a job at a ministry, spending more years working your way up, and actually dealing with the consequences of your actions would be nice.

I know this idea appeals to about 5 people, give or take 4, but still

Recently I was seeing some people talk about the JOKER [2019] movie, and how it wasn't actually that good. While I was reading them I genuinely felt really embarrassed and started to try to come up with reasons why it's actually a good movie. But then i realized i never even watched Joker, I dont even like DC stuff that much, and wasn't even the target of the argument.

I'm starting to realize I do this a lot. When people started criticizing PhilosphyTube recently (for good reason) I felt an inherent impulse to defend her before realizing I never watched her stuff anyway, and only knew her from association with other breadtubers. [Although part of that is probably because I'm trans too and it feels really bad when trans people act stupid and are seen bad].

I even do this with fictional characters. I recently watched a funny animation of the courier from Fallout NV ranting about how "Caesar" (from the same game) doesn't understand hegel or immanant critique and for some goddamn reason a part of my brain was like "well I mean he's not really that dumb." Like no, I don't have to find some reason why he's actually smart. Who cares? Why would I ever care?