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I cannot describe the visceral level of aversion I have to mainstream shit. It doesn't matter if the show is the best thing on earth, if the general public knows about it (And I don't mean the internet, I mean the average person) then I refuse to watch or partake in it. I have no idea why and it genuinely kills me to be like this and I have no idea why.

It prevents me from joining most fandoms nowadays unless the fandom is niche. Things like Hotel Hazbin, Studio Ghibli films, Star Wars, The Office, K-pop (in general), Kpop Demon Hunters, most popular anime... WHY. WHY AM I LIKE THIS?? Is anyone else like this? Is there a reason for this or a phenomenon that causes me to feel this way?

Even people just going: "Oh yeah I love One Piece, you should watch it sometimes" makes me go "Oh fuck nah I'm good" as if the damn show was a personal insult. I feel like a stuck-up prick when I do this but I genuinely can't control it, it makes me UNCOMFORTABLE to watch these shows and the more someone recommends it to me the worse it gets. It doesn't even have to be recommended to me personally I can just see other people raving about it and go "Aw great now I'm gonna have to listen to this shit for the next 9 months."

This can also happen with media that was previously unpopular but then got popular. Junji Ito was one of them. The moment I saw Hot Topic was selling merch of it and that multiple anime's were coming out based on it, I stopped reading his books altogether. I used to buy up every single one of his books and read them constantly, now? I just lost interest and moved on, hoping the hype would die back down and then I could enjoy it again

I cannot describe the visceral level of aversion I have to mainstream shit. It doesn't matter if the show is the best thing on earth, if the general public knows about it (And I don't mean the internet I mean the general public) then I refuse to watch or partake in it. I have no idea why and it genuinely kills me to be like this and I have no idea why.

It prevents me from joining most fandoms nowadays unless the fandom is super niche. Things like Hotel Hazbin, Star Wars, The Office, K-pop (in general), Kpop Demon Hunters, most popular anime... WHY. WHY AM I LIKE THIS?? Is anyone else like this? Even people just mentioning "Oh yeah I love One Piece, you should watch it sometimes" makes me go "Oh fuck nah I'm good" as if the damn show was a personal insult. I feel like a stuck-up prick when I do this but I genuinely can't control it, why????

POTENTIALLY DUMB QUESTION ALERT, but I'm here for a reason. I have SEVERE ADHD which a lot of the time feels like I'm bordering on autism when it comes to specific interactions. I've developed a habit of just, throwing out the phrase "oh, I'm just hella autistic" as a reason if I do something weird in a social interaction, like get overly passionate about something or get awkward or whatever.

I've never been formally diagnosed with autism, but I've had therapists suggest I may be autistic. Idk why I keep fucking saying that I'm "autistic" I feel like it's just easier to both say and explain as opposed to "oh I'm neurodivergent" or "Oh im just mentally ill :3" Its also cus I assume most people know what Autism looks like and thus I dont have to explain as much, as most people dont know what severe ADHD looks like and I assume most dont even take ADHD that seriously.

Is that something to just throw around like that?? 'Cause I have friends who actually are autistic, and after hyperfixating on all kinds of mental health research, I don't exactly fit the bar for autism, I'm wayyyyy too outgoing and sociable(?) among other things. My symptoms fit more under severe ADHD or potentially even AuADHD. Which I also have no idea how I can go about getting a diagnosis.

Idk, listening to songs like Buddy Holly in its fullest is like nails on a chalkboard for me, the vocalist just deadass can't sing, and they shift ranges like crazy, even sounding off key in some places. I love hearing the remixes of it, and I like the lick at the end, but that's about it. They play that stuff on the radio all the time and I see Weezer referenced EVERYWHERE but do fans actually like the music or is it all just Ironic, 'cause I can only find myself and my friends enjoying it out of irony

This person friended me from an online game I played asking if I wanted to be paid to be a penpal. I'm familiar with a lot of phishing scams and other sorts of scams but I've never seen a scam like this one. What exactly is this person trying to get from me, are they hoping to infect my device with something sinister or are they trying to phish information from me without me knowing it? They seem to put a lotta emphasis on me VIEWING this photo they're gonna send me and it makes me think that whatever they're gonna send me must be infected with some sort of trojan. Can someone explain to me what's going on here?

I'm perma-banned on Reddit for accidental ban evasion (I don't really want to get into it), so I came here as an alternative. But there isnt NEARLY as many communities or members as there are on reddit. But I cant go back there cus they perma banned me, that was 2 years ago when they first banned me. Lemmy just isn't the same, and I wish I could go back to Reddit, but that site is arguably more nerve-wracking to be on than anything else. What can I do?? What other alternatives do I have? And no I cant really just not use reddit cus I primarily used it to ask questions about specific stuff or if I wanted someones opinion about a product or some thing. Reddit is often more useful than google is. idk im just kinda upset and at a fuckin loss. What kinda website perma bans a user for life and logs all their info just to make sure they don't come back?!

I got a friend who's MAGA and I've been talking to her about her politics for a bit and she's willing to hear me out on my concerns. It's also black history month, and she knows nothing about black history.

I wanna watch a movie with her or a documentary that dives into modern-day racism without explicitly putting down MAGA/conservatives. My goal is not to insult her or make her feel bad, it's to educate her, hence why I'm asking.

(Please let me know if something I've said is problematic or offensive in some kinda way? Sometimes I word things badly or I will ask things that arent okay and I dont realize it until I hit post, lemme know so I can correct myself for the future thankyuuuu ;w;)

Hey guys! Its me, The one girl who posted months ago about a cool rock I got. I finally have pictures of it now. I was also eating brownies.

Ok, ima be totally real with all of you, I dont know SHIT about cryptocurrency or none of that, the only reason im even checking the stock market is cus since it's ASTRONOMICALLY fucked rn, I figured I'd invest a little into S&P cus "why not"

I was checking it today and I was curious about Etherium and I noticed this MASSIVE spike and it just dips right back down all in like 20-30 minutes. Wtf happened? What caused this? Is there some kinda "pump and dump" happening?

This was taken just a few minutes ago...

And I took this one just now...

I use this little AI rp website and the textbox that you use to respond to the bot is SO SMALL. It doesnt expand the more you wright, it just keeps scrolling but it keeps the same narrow size that it has,

No, Stylish doesnt work And no, I dont know how to write CCS or CSS or whatever it is- and I dont really wanna do that regardless >~>

Idk- An extention or plugin or maybe even some kinda Github thingy that- does something idfk, I just hate how small it is cus I write so much 😭

I just looked up the website on angry birds and I made one. I was sick and didnt do much else. I like the game a lot

Its red and perfectly shaped like a rock, I dont have a picture of it now, but I'll post it when i get home.

I am also not a man