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Thank you. I broke up with her last night. I wanted it to be on good terms, but it devolved into us venting about our issues with the relationship. It really fucking sucks right now. I looked through all the valentines cards and sticky notes she left for me over the past few years, and I wept. The highs really were high.

I have a support system, but it's gonna be a while before the pain goes away. It's brutal, but I couldn't keep living like this. I haven't felt like I could be myself around her for a long time; I had to be her ideal partner instead.

You were right about how I was living. I was trying not to be harmed by our relationship instead of enjoying it. And I can't say how long it's been like that. It just crept up on me, you know?

It was like I realized how much I'd been carrying this whole time. Trying to keep her happy to avoid being berated or yelled at, or told you're not good enough. In the moment you can dismiss these things as temporary events, but they're not temporary when they become part of your daily reality. I really think she wanted perfect, while I could settle for good enough.

Yeah, I think you're right. I just needed to hear it.

It really fuckin' sucks, but I think I'm just gonna make it worse if I wait. I'm just a little scared to admit years of my life were wasted, yah know?

You're right. I should be asking my friends. But, a part of me also wants to know what a stranger would say. My friends know and care about me, but I think it's worthwhile to see what someone totally removed would say if they knew how I felt.

And I won't lie, maybe a part of me is looking for permission. I don't want to feel like I'm crazy or making a rash decision.

I really appreciate it, though. It's tough, and I don't think there's a 'good' answer. No matter what I do, it'll be an unhappy outcome on some level.

In theory, it's until you have resolved your issues. It's more like the therapist mediates and asks questions to helo you understand your relationship dynamics. We made quick progress, but it dissipated over the course of a year.

By then, the therapy was mostly trying to help us retread ground and we both struggled with that fact.

That cope from Conservative Christians™️ is always funny. Similar statements show up in the Talmud. A large animal passing through the eye of a needle was a common idiom in Jewish culture at the time to demonstrate impossibility.

You get downvoted for it, but it's absolutely true. She had a real opportunity to distinguish herself from Biden, and for a brief moment I thought she would. Then she shifted to the right to draw in centrists.

Users here can stick their heads in the sand all they want, but like with the Clinton campaign, it won't change the election outcome.

She's handing Trump the race by imitating Biden. I say this as someone who will likely vote for her anyway: this is becoming a disaster for her. She cannot afford to lose Muslim voters in Michigan, and the continued bleeding of Hispanic voters spells even longer-term problems for the party.

On this site? Users of Lemmy in denial of her alienation of voters. She started strong and then pissed all of that good will away by announcing she's just going to be a continuation of the Biden Israel policy.

And before anyone says "oh, the Biden administration is pushing for a ceasefire". Nobody takes that seriously. You can't push for a ceasefire and rhetorically and materially enable the annihilation of Gaza and the invasion of Lebanon. Any ceasefire proposals are performative.

Yep. I have access to everything else, just can't view Youtube while signed in.

I disabled my adblock for YT, but I still use privacy badger and occasionally a VPN.

Good to know. Even if it does get unsuspended, I'm taking it as a wake up call. If that was my gmail account I would've been in a bad situation. I use it for almost everything.

Better late than never lol. They really are a shitty company. Bots run the show over there. I just never thought it would be this bad until it was...

The other shenanigans was that the secretary of state allowed other petitioners with the same issues to proceed on the ballot, namely marijuana and gambling referendums. The organizers should have been on their best behavior because the state was always going to selectively enforce the rules here.

The schools doing okay financially aren't the ones cutting these programs for cost-saving reasons. In bigger state universities eliminating programs, the cuts are largely political. School admins are worried that state legislators will target school budgets in the near future if cuts aren't made to "useless" subjects in the humanities and social science.

In regional state universities and private liberal arts schools, however, the situation really is dire. They're cutting to survive. The US has started to experience a decline in college enrollment. Universities have known it would happen since the late 2000s, but not in the way it has.

Big universities are growing or maintaining class sizes, which is putting tremendous pressure on the regional and liberal arts schools as the available students evaporate. It's pushed the timeline for change up at many universities and it's only going to get worse.

Do I feel sorry for university admins? No, they should've taken action sooner, with real wind-down plans for students. But we're going to continue to see cuts to small programs for decades to come; it's unavoidable.