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He simply had a long absence it seems.. like I said, a part of me had such a "too good to be true" feeling and thought he could've just been on vacation, but today, I started to notice the usual signs of him being here.

His bike was sitting out in the hallway (he leaves it there for a long time for some reason and it makes it honestly a pain in the ass to pass through), he was going in and out of the door a lot and I kept hearing it (I don't know why he does this), and I saw a bunch of dishes sitting out in the kitchen (probably for his obsessive cleaning stuff; I don't know entirely what's going on there).

Upon noticing the very first sign, I looked outside through my window, and there he was, sitting on the porch.

This ruined my fucking day entirely.

Well, I'm back to avoiding the kitchen again (except for microwaving of course). Unfortunate, but I can't do anything else about it.

An important thing to consider is that this guy treats this property like it's his own, which is what I make of him being so obsessive and controlling about stuff here. A person who left because of him once told me, "Why does he act this way? Is he paying everybody's rent?" When he's complaining or in his ranty mode, something he says a lot is, "We don't live in a dirty house here!" This is another reason why I remained skeptical about the prospect of him leaving... how attached he seems to this location.

I already theorized that a reason why he acts this way (towards POC especially) is that he has a superiority complex as an older white man that gets him to feel ashamed that he is in the same living situation as a young black person who got here on a food service salary; it checks out.

The best thing for me is to used the share space of the kitchen as little as I can.

It was fine while it lasted.

EDIT: He just saw me and apparently won some money with the lottery or something like that and showed it to me (even though I don't give a shit). Forced me to give him a high five too...

If he actually made some big money with that shit, I honest to God hope he uses it to go the fuck somewhere else.

From the isolated lead guitar MIDI of another song I wrote.

This song is called "The Dialectic," and I haven't written lyrics yet, but they will certainly pertain to Marxism.

I would've included the backing track but I'm still learning more about mixing and it would've probably been difficult for me to make every instrument sit well in the mix, so it's isolated but it demonstrates what it sounds like!

This is from one of the isolated guitar MIDIs of a song I wrote.

Something about this makes me able to listen to it and do the whole, "Yeah, I wrote this" thing, y'know?

I hope this message finds you well. We appreciate your interest in the [Position] role with [Job], and for taking the time to apply. We received a high volume of applications, and after a thorough review of all candidates, we regret to inform you that we will not be moving forward with your application.

after a thorough review of all candidates,

I literally applied to this job less than 30 minutes ago. I kid you not.

Reposting.

Due to old racist dude being as awful as he is, I stopped cooking food and only eat canned veggies, potatoes, and legumes right now pretty much.

I microwave it using my own dishes, and it's been keeping me well so far. I like the security knowing that it's impossible for him to successfully gaslight me so long as I don't really use the kitchen.

I need to restock and $5 will get me a good deal, so that's all I need.

My Cash App is $QuingCrimson. I also have PayPal, Venmo, and Zelle. Any and all help is greatly appreciated.

To start, I got my phone bill covered by another source!

That other source is also posting on my behalf regarding rent due March 1st because I got back to them early.

Since February is a shorter month, I wanna get the word out now, but of course, it's not that urgent right now.

Thanks to all who have been of assistance.

I've been applying for jobs at a rate of about 5 jobs a day. I hope, statistically, this will make a job not too far off, but y'know...

If you'd like to chip anything in for rent right now, my Cash App is $QuingCrimson. DM if you would like to use Zelle, PayPal, or Venmo.

Sorry for quick repost. Deleting the other. Rather stressed and been in bed all day. Doing this and probably will have to sleep some more in a bit.

Though I have other expenses that are not too far off from needing to be paid, this is the most urgent.

My CashApp is $QuingCrimson.

DM me for PayPal, Venmo, and Zelle

💛🤍💜🖤

Update: Got the Internet covered. Thank you all

I may start posting for rent again too, especially since February is a shorter month.

Any help is appreciated. Even if you cannot contribute a large chunk of the goal, I will be happy about any progress. $5 isn't just $5, but it's movement closer to the goal.

I have Cash App, Venmo, Zelle, and PayPal.

My Cash App is $QuingCrimson.

DM for the others!

Love you all 💚

Massive thanks to those who have kept me afloat during this rough time in general.

The sus comments about Muslims "replacing" the British are there, but otherwise...

New Dream Theater album is solid. This long ass closer has got to be my favorite.

Any help is appreciated. Even if you cannot contribute a large chunk of the goal, I will be happy about any progress. $5 isn't just $5, but it's movement closer to the goal.

I have Cash App, Venmo, Zelle, and PayPal.

My Cash App is $QuingCrimson.

DM for the others!

Love you all 💚

Massive thanks to those who have kept me afloat during this rough time in general.