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It means that this is also how I've been feeling as of late.

Even just a few months ago, I was a lot more in the mentality of wanting "equality" with the oppressor, but now I took a turn away from that for sure.

I probably will never get white people to respect me, but I hope to get them to leave me the fuck alone at the very least. They even suck at doing that, though.

I don’t want equality with my oppressor I want to be liberated of him

This seriously has been the vibe

Though I'm still dreading the job shit, at least I have one thing I love a ton, and that is my nappy hair

EDIT: The "dreading" part wasn't a pun but it fits

Didn't get the job, JFC

The workplace is majority Black.

Haha, nice.

If I get hired, they said I can start as early as 2 days from then, but it might take longer.

I might see about getting a bus pass. This place is pretty far and a friend gave me some Uber money to get to and from the interview.

Let us hope.

Love this Haitian vegan queen, by the way, but I'mma try to chill.

Nah, no need to apologize. The other 90% is a really chunky turd directly on your hand.

Better than 90% of other sites yet somehow still qualifies as being equivalent to a really chunky turd on a piece of 1-ply toilet paper. That says a lot. I'd quite literally would rather exist in a room of Black conservatives than a room with the majority-white leftist userbase of this site. In fact, I've already had to go through that shit with the Black conservatives, and as unpleasant as it was, at the very least, they still treated me as a whole-ass person.

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Thanks. I'll stick around a little, but really, this site is just not good. I keep thinking back to the LoveYourself incident, too. That made me so mad. If you don't mind, I can PM you my band name so you can see how this project grows. Appreciate you.

Bump

Feel like I could write about "why I left the left" but instead of me describing my transition to some conservative grifting scheme, it's actually just me reflecting on how unserious even the boldest of "Marxists" are.

I continued to be shocked by the amount of racism and ableism on this site, and...

My principles and analysis of the world will remain fundamentally leftist, but leftism is just a tool in my toolbox. I feel no connection to the left as a "group" anymore. It has gotten way too unserious. Even this site, which many would consider "significantly better" than your average leftist space, has nothing truly redeemable about it. I hate to sound like a doomer, but leftism will continue to feel like a therapy group for individual catharsis and vibes rather than a legitimate basis for revolutionary tendencies.

I seriously hope this interview tomorrow goes wonderfully because, once I am in a position to no longer need financial assistance, I will certainly leave this site because it is not good for my wellbeing. I still want to assist others on mutual_aid, though, so I may keep some alt for that purpose alone.

There is only one group I actively feel proud to associate with, and that is Africans and the diaspora.

❤️🖤💚