Damn I'm sorry dude. Something similar happened to me, was out of a job for a month, applied to a bunch of stuff on indeed and found something. Start time is super early so that sucks :/ hoping to find something else eventually while I got some income.
Hope you find something too, keep pushing through the rejections.
The best explanation I've heard is imagine an ant. All it really does is gather food, eat food, protect the queen, you know, simple stuff. Then it comes across a circuit board. And suddenly the ant is filled with knowledge of how the circuit board works, what electricity is and how the components all work together. Then it goes back to being just an ant again, but it still kind of remembers that knowledge but can't understand any of it anymore. And now it has to try to go on being just an ant again.